Hurting....
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Posted:Jan 28, 2010 10:54 pm
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You know.... It has been almost a year (if not longer) since I have posted a blog... Tonight I need to.... Tomorrow is one year to the day I got assaulted by the man I thought would love & protect me forever....
I have recently made contact with my "baby daddy".... I tried to step back... Allow him to see my .... Step away.... Yet I found myself drug into the "what if??" crap..... He went through Rehab.... He LOVES me.... He KNOWS me.... ETC.... BS BS BS BS.....
All I can think of is how many times I reminded my friends "They are an EX for a reason" and "NEVER have sex with an ex"........ Amazingly... The same man that has been out of my life for YEARS... Suddenly comes in with a GREAT (under the table job" that works him about 8 days a month)
Stupidly.... I believed... For a moment....
NOW.... There is a GREAT TRAGEDY that has caused him (and his 3 teenagers) to need a place to rest their heads  ....
I LOVE my step-..... But my life is SOOOOO calm compared to raising them for the 8 yrs I did..... I CANNOT go BACK!!!! My lil apt has no room, I have NO DESIRE to give up my lazy weekends.... NOR the desire to cook/clean up after 5 instead of 2...... I guess I am feeling SELFISH.....
But I DO NOT CARE!!!!! This is MY home!!!!! I fought LONG AND HARD for it!!!!!!!!
I will ALLOW visitors!!!!! But NO SQUATTERS!!!!!!!!
I LOVE MY !!!! BUT..... THEY HAVE A MOMMA AND A STEP-DADDY!
And I need to be allowed to be ME for the FIRST time in 20 yrs.....
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Happy THANKSGIVING!!!!!
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Posted:Nov 27, 2008 3:04 am
Last Updated:Aug 6, 2010 3:39 am
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Ok.... BEFORE ya attack me or whatever..... THIS IS MY place to put my feelings down..... MY BLOG!!!! You have a right to your opinion, as do I..... But I am NOT heading to your page to try and make ya look like the ass you are 
WITH THAT BEING SAID!!!!!
This did NOT end the way I wanted it to..... It wrote itself 
I found myself in a "bah humbug" spirit today.... DRAGGING my ass around... Cleaning my home for friends & family that care enough to come see me....
PISSED that I HAD to go to the store to replenish the bag of chips I sent so my & his classmates could enjoy THEIR feast in their classroom with an AWESOME teacher as they were allowed the RIGHT to watch "A Charlie Brown Thanksgiving".....
All I could think was "Dammit... Are we over the holidays yet???"....
Then as I sat in my PURTY Jeep that my workaholic husband bought me, that was warm & full of gas, thinking to myself about all the things I MIGHT get but really didn't need............
I looked to my right and saw a female police officer.... Without a jacket.... Trying to coax an elderly man that appeared homeless but was obviously intoxicated to his feet....
Since my light was red, I couldn't help but to keep looking over my shoulder.... Wondering if she lost her grip, would he fall into the oncoming traffic???  (NOT looking for a train wreck, mind you)
I briefly thought about hopping the curb & offering assistance, but realized with the legal ramifications, my help would probably not be welcomed.....
Soooo many thoughts went through my head ranging from "Well, I hope they take him to detox" all the way to "Glad I didn't give HIM $1".....
Now, I HAVE been known to be asked for $1 and have only a $10.... And give it ........With all the hopes that I truly found the one soul that really wanted to buy a sandwich or a gallon of gas.....
This time.... I was not in the position to help..... But I think that man I witnessed was not placed there for ME to help..... I think he was placed there to help ME.....
I suddenly found myself THANKFUL for the blessings I have....
I am THANKFUL I have a husband that loves me and is not mean or refuses to work.
I am THANKFUL I have 3 beautiful sons, 2 that fight me tooth & nail on how I think they should be & one that is with God already telling him how I will be.
THANKFUL that I have friends & family willing to come & visit me on their days of Thanks.
THANKFUL for soooooo many things....
We have become a nation of spoiled brats always thinking we deserve more then we will ever get....
To the person that HATES their job.... Think of the person that would LOVE to have ANY job.....
To the person that HATES dealing with traffic.... Think of the person that must catch the bus in 10-30 below to go and earn a minimum wage...
To the person that HATES their family..... Think of the person that doesn't want to wake from the dreams of their family that has passed away....The ones that have already lost theirs...
To the person that HATES the 14 stairs to their home.... Think of the person that is unable to feel their bodies from the neck down, much less walk....
To the people that call the Holidays "Winter Holiday", "T-Day", "Turkey Day", "X-Mas", "Season's Greetings"...... Think of the meaning behind the holidays that you so commercially celebrate....
Think of going the traditional route.....
Smile at a stranger instead of flipping them the bird....
Donate to a charity instead of buying yourself lunch or a "Foo-Foo Coffee" everyday this week...
Forgive someone that wronged you for a lousy $50
Teach a something that will ALWAYS make them think of you.....
There is sooo much more going through my mind, but I will end with this.....
HATE THE WAR IF YOU MUST!!!! SUPPORT THE SOLDIER THAT IS FIGHTING IT FOR YOU!!!!!!!!
Happy Thanksgiving to all..... I for one will say a prayer for those that are unable to be home with their loved ones but are making sure my family can still appreciate OUR time together....
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HOW THE FIGHT STARTED
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Posted:Nov 18, 2008 9:13 pm
Last Updated:Aug 15, 2009 9:39 pm
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When I got home last night, my wife demanded that I take her someplace
expensive....so, I took her to a gas station..... and then the fight started....
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I tried to talk my wife into buying a case of Milller Light for $14.95.
Instead, she bought a jar of cold cream for $7.95. I told her the beer would make her look better at night than the cold cream.� And that's when the fight started.
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After retiring, I went to the Social Security office to apply for Social Security. The woman behind the counter asked me for my driver's license to verify my age. I looked in my pockets and realized I had left my wallet at home. I told the woman that I was very sorry, but I would have to go home and come back later.The woman said, 'Unbutton your shirt'. So I opened my shirt revealing my curly silver hair. She s aid, 'That silver hair on your chest is proof enough for me' and she processed my Social Security application. When I got home, I excitedly told my wife about my experience at the Social Security office. She said, 'You should have dropped your pants. You might have gotten disability, too"
And then the fight started.....
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My wife and I were sitting at a table at my high school reunion, and I kept staring at a drunken lady swigging her drink as she sat alone at a nearby table.
My wife asked, 'Do you know her?'
'Yes,' I sighed, 'She's my old girlfriend. I understand she took to drinking right after we split up those many years ago, and I hear she hasn't been sober since.'
'My God!' says my wife, 'Who would think a person could go on celebrating that long?'
And then the fight started.....
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I rear-ended a car this morning. So, there we were alongside the road and slowly the other driver got out of his car.You know how sometimes you just get soooo stressed and little things just seem funny?
Yeah, well I couldn't believe it.... he was a DWARF!!! He stormed over to my car, looked up at me, and shouted, 'I AM NOT HAPPY!!!' So, I looked down at him and said, 'Well, then which one are you?"
And that's how the fight started.....
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I took my wife to a restaurant. The waiter, for some reason, took my order first.
'I'll have the strip steak, medium rare, please.' He said, 'Aren't you worried about the mad cow?'
'Nah, she can order for herself.'
And that's how the fight started.....
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We are FUCKED!!!!!!
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Posted:Nov 5, 2008 2:24 am
Last Updated:Aug 6, 2010 3:40 am
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I personally see the "beginning of the end" here.... I am scared... I hate that my will see the ramifications of this.... Obama has his beliefs, and unfortunately, NONE of them seem to be shared by me or any of my friends or family.... Basically, none shared by "Siona The Sincere Homemaker"....... I stand by the decisions made regarding our troops in the war... We went to war FOR A REASON!!!! THE FUCKERS BOMBED US ON OUR OWN TURF!!!! AFTER TRAINING ON OUR OWN LAND!!!!!!! For those of you that have forgotten.... Just PLEASE listen to Darryl Whorley's "Have You Forgotten"....!!!!!! I DAMN SURE haven't forgotten!!!! Just 4 yrs ago our economy was still strong.... We NEED help these days... JUST NOT FROM THE MAN YOU HAVE CHOSEN!!!!!!!
For those of you that will claim I am prejudiced, I AM!!!! But NOT against blacks, women, chinese, polish, catholics, or senior citizens!!!!
Against IGNORANCE!!!! And SOCIALISM!!!! And DECEIT!!!! And "SHARING THE WEALTH" as the ones that need to hold their money close are being told to share it with those that have NEVER held a job in the USA!!!! The ones that cannot pass the citizen test, yet get the Social Security funds!!!! The ones that REFUSE to learn to speak English yet they enjoy any & ALL privileges that Americans (who speak English) hope to.... Against the ones that claim that Americans HONORING THE USA FLAG, and refusing to honor THEIR flags, are showing hatred!!!!!
IF YOUR FLAG, YOUR COUNTRY, YOUR LANGUAGE, YOUR CUSTOMS are so precious...... WHY ARE YOU HERE????? GO HOME!!!! QUICKLY... BEFORE WE FORCE YOU TO BECOME AN AMERICAN!!!DO NOT BENEFIT FROM OUR FREEDOM.... OUR FUTURE!!!! BUT DO NOT DRAG US INTO YOUR THIRD WORLD WAY OF THINKING!!!!!!!
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NObama '08
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Posted:Nov 4, 2008 11:30 am
Last Updated:Aug 6, 2010 3:39 am
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'Twas the night before elections
And all through the town
Tempers were flaring
Emotions all up and down!
I, in my bathrobe
With a cat in my lap
Had cut off the TV
Tired of political crap.
When all of a sudden
There arose such a noise
I peered out of my window
Saw Obama and his boys
They had come for my wallet
They wanted my pay
To give to the others
Who had not worked a day!
He snatched up my money
And quick as a wink
Jumped back on his bandwagon
As I gagged from the stink
He then rallied his henchmen
Who were pulling his cart
I could tell they were out
To tear my country apart!
On Fannie, on Freddie,
On Biden and Ayers!
On Acorn, On Pelosi'
He screamed at the pairs!
They took off for his cause
And as he flew out of sight
I heard him laugh at the nation
Who wouldn't stand up and fight!
So I leave you to think
On this one final note-
IF YOU DONT WANT SOCIALISM
GET OUT AND VOTE!!!!
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I am a QUITTER
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Posted:Oct 13, 2008 1:12 am
Last Updated:Nov 13, 2008 10:24 am
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Went into chat... Shared my LAST smoke with my dear friend..... And now begins the rest of my life 
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Been Awhile....
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Posted:Oct 7, 2008 11:32 pm
Last Updated:Oct 11, 2008 12:09 pm
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WOW!!! Can't believe it has been 6 months since I last "checked in" here.....
Hope this post is finding you all well!!!!
The snow flew last night & I WOULD be depressed, except I think I am going through a mid-life crisis.....
Those of you that have met me, know that I have gained quite a bit of weight since I FIRST signed in here..... To date, I have lost 12 lbs (thanks to a site JustChristy showed me & my Wii Fit )....
I am also quitting smoking.... NOTICE that I did NOT say I am TRYING to quit.... Is just a reality....
And .... I am NO LONGER A BLONDE
Everyone that has seen is kind of taken aback, but, I LIKE it.... My lil family has gotten used to it, so WTH.....
I am NOT fooling myself into believing I can pull a bikini off by next June, but I am pretty sure I won't be in a 3XXX shirt if Blue has a luau next year ......
I have had a semi-crappy attitude lately and find myself RARELY enjoying chat as I used to.... MOST of that is me... Some is others that choose to create drama & childish games....
As a mom, I have enough of that in RL without being drug into it in chat.....
Ok... Well....
I miss you all & hope now to find my CHEER again!!!!
Despite this DAMN SNOW 
Hope to see MANY at Mami's this weekend 
Kisses & hugs to those of you that know I luv ya....
Siona
PS...............Open the image to the left of this post to see what reminded me of what is important 
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Could have heard a pin drop........
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Posted:Apr 12, 2008 1:34 am
Last Updated:Nov 13, 2008 10:25 am
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When in England at a fairly large conference, Colin Powell was asked by
the Archbishop of Canterbury if our plans for Iraq were just an example
of empire building' by George Bush.
He answered by saying, 'Over the years, the United States has sent many
of its fine young men and women into great peril to fight for freedom
beyond our borders. The only amount of land we have ever asked for in
return is enough to bury those that did not return.
You could have heard a pin drop.
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Then there was a conference in France where a number of international
engineers were taking part, including French and American. During a
break one of the French engineers came back into the room saying 'Have
you heard the latest dumb stunt Bush has done? He has sent an aircraft
carrier to Indonesia to help the tsunami victims. What does he intended
to do, bomb them?' A Boeing engineer stood up and replied quietly: 'Our
carriers have three hospitals on board that can treat several hundred
people; they are nuclear powered and can supply emergency electrical
power to shore facilities; they have three cafeterias with the capacity
to feed 3,000 people three meals a day, they can produce several
thousand gallons of fresh water from sea water each day, and they carry
half a dozen helicopters for use in transporting victims and injured to
and from their flight deck.. We have eleven such ships; how many does
France have?'
You could have heard a pin drop.
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A U.S. Navy Admiral was attending a naval conference that included
Admirals from the U.S., English, Canadian, Australian and French Navies.
At a cocktail reception, he found himself standing with a large group of
Officers that included personnel from most of those countries. Everyone
was chatting away in English as they sipped their drinks but a French
admiral suddenly complained that, 'whereas Europeans learn many
languages, Americans learn only English.' He then asked, 'Why is it that
we always have to speak English in these conferences rather than
speaking French?' Without hesitating, the American Admiral replied
'Maybe it's because the Brits, Canadians, Aussies and Americans arranged
it so you wouldn't have to speak German.'
You could have heard a pin drop.
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AND THIS STORY FITS RIGHT IN WITH THE ABOVE...
A group of Americans, retired teachers, recently went to France on a
tour. Robert Whiting, an elderly gentleman of 83, arrived in Paris by
plane. At French Customs, he took a few minutes to locate his passport
in his carry on. "You have been to France before, monsieur?" the customs
officer asked sarcastically. Mr. Whiting admitted that he had been to
France previously. "Then you should know enough to have your passport
ready." The American said, "The last time I was here, I didn't have to
show it." "Impossible. Americans always have to show your passports on
arrival in France!" The American senior gave the Frenchman a long hard
look. Then he quietly explained. "Well, when I came ashore at Omaha
Beach on D-Day in '44 to help liberate this country, I couldn't find any
damn Frenchmen to show it to."
You could have heard a pin drop
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Mystery Solved!!
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Posted:Apr 1, 2008 12:23 pm
Last Updated:Jul 26, 2008 11:51 pm
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Do you know who makes the rules?
It is absolutely imperative that in all of the sports in which we engage
We, without hesitation, play by the rules
We take care to understand the rules.
We discuss the rules amongst ourselves and we study the rules.
As players, we are ruled by the rules.
Lord knows there are all kinds of rules in any game.
And as citizens, we must follow the rules of law for so many things we do every day.
But just in case you have been pondering this, all your life,
As to who actually makes the rules, please click on the picture to the left.....
ANY QUESTIONS???
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Waste Not .... Want not....
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Posted:Mar 30, 2008 8:42 pm
Last Updated:Apr 1, 2008 1:54 pm
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At the end of the tax year the IRS office sent an inspector to audit the books of a Synagogue.
While he was checking the books he turned to
the Rabbi and said, "I notice you buy a lot of candles. What do you do with the candle drippings?"
"Good question," noted the Rabbi. "We save them up and send them back to the candle makers, and every now and then they send us a free box of
candles."
"Oh," replied the auditor, somewhat disappointed that his unusual question had a practical answer. But on he went, in his obnoxious way:
"What about all these bread wafer purchases? What do you do with the crumbs?"
"Ah, yes," replied the Rabbi, realizing that the inspector was trying to trap him with an unanswerable question. "We collect them and send
them back to the manufacturer, and every now and then they send us a free box of bread-wafers."
"I see," replied the auditor, thinking hard about how he could fluster the know-it-all Rabbi. "Well, Rabbi," he went on, "what do you do with all the leftover foreskins from the circumcisions you perform?"
"Here, too, we do not waste, "answered the Rabbi."
What we do is save all the foreskins and send them to the tax office, and about once a year they send us a complete dick."
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Sometimes a few short ones are better then one long one ;)
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Posted:Mar 20, 2008 4:10 pm
Last Updated:Apr 2, 2009 8:30 pm
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Two guys were discussing popular family trends on sex, marriage, and values. Stu said, 'I didn't sleep with my wife before we got married, Did you?
'Leroy replied, 'I'm not sure, what was her maiden name?'
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A little boy went up to his father and asked: 'Dad, where did my intelligence come from?'
The father replied. 'Well , you must have got it from your mother, 'cause I still have mine.'
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'Mr. Clark, I have reviewed this case very carefully,' the divorce Court Judge said, 'And I've decided to give your wife $775 a week,'
'That's very fair, your honor,' the husband said. 'And every now and then I'll try to send her a few bucks myself.'
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A doctor examining a woman who had been rushed to the Emergency Room, took the husband aside, and said, 'I don't like the looks of your wife at all.'
'Me neither doc,' said the husband. 'But she's a great cook and really good with the '.
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An old man goes to the Wizard to ask him if he can remove a curse he has been living with for the last 40 years.
The Wizard says, 'Maybe, but you will have to tell me the exact words that were used to put the curse on you'.
The old man says without hesitation, 'I now pronounce you man and wife.'
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Two Reasons Why It's So Hard To Solve A Redneck Murder.
1. The DNA all matches.
2. There are no dental records.
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A blonde calls Delta Airlines and asks, 'Can you tell me how long it'll take to fly from San Francisco to New York City ?'
The agent replies, 'Just a minute..'
'Thank you,' the blonde says, and hangs up.
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Two Mexican detectives were investigating the murder of Juan Gonzalez.
'How was he killed?' asked one detective.
'With a golf gun,' the other detective replied. 'A golf gun?!
What is a golf gun?' 'I don't know. But it sure made a hole in Juan.'
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Moe: 'My wife got me to believe in religion.'
Joe: 'Really?'
Moe: 'Yeah. Until I married her I didn't believe in hell.'
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A man is recovering from surgery when the Surgical Nurse appears and asks him how he is feeling.
'I'm O. K. but I didn't like the four-letter-word the doctor used in surgery,' he answered.
'What did he say,' asked the nurse.
'OOPS'
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While shopping for vacation clothes, my husband and I passed a display of bathing suits. It had been at least ten years and twenty pounds since I had even considered buying a bathing suit, so sought my husband's advice.
'What do you think?' I asked. 'Should I get a bikini or an all-in-one?'
'Better get a bikini,' he replied. 'You'd never get it all in one.'
He's still in intensive care.
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The Day the Penis asked for a Raise
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Posted:Mar 16, 2008 2:45 am
Last Updated:Mar 20, 2008 3:06 pm
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The Day the Penis asked for a Raise
I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following
reasons:
I do physical labor.
I work at great depths.
I plunge head-first into everything I do.
I do not get weekends or public holidays off.
I work in a damp environment.
I work in a dark workplace that has poor ventilation.
I work in high temperatures.
My work exposes me to contagious diseases.
Sincerely,
P.Niss
THE RESPONSE:
Dear Penis:
After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have raised,
the administration rejects your request for the following reasons:
You do not work 8 hours straight.
You fall asleep after brief work periods.
You do not always follow the orders of the management team.
You do not stay in your designated area and are often seen visiting other locations.
You do not take initiative -
you need to be pressured and stimulated in order to start working.
You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift.
You don't always observe necessary safety regulations,
such as wearing the correct protective clothing.
You will retire well before you are 65.
You are unable to work double shifts.
You sometimes leave your designated work area
before you have completed assigned tasks.
And if that were not all,
you have been seen constantly entering and exiting the workplace
carrying two suspicious-looking bags.
Sincerely,
V. Gina
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