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Blogs > rm_sionaofak > Will Wonders Never Cease

Hurting....  

rm_sionaofak 52F
215 posts
1/28/2010 10:54 pm

Last Read:
4/19/2011 2:18 am
Hurting....

You know.... It has been almost a year (if not longer) since I have posted a blog... Tonight I need to.... Tomorrow is one year to the day I got assaulted by the man I thought would love & protect me forever....
I have recently made contact with my "baby daddy".... I tried to step back... Allow him to see my .... Step away.... Yet I found myself drug into the "what if??" crap..... He went through Rehab.... He LOVES me.... He KNOWS me.... ETC.... BS BS BS BS.....
All I can think of is how many times I reminded my friends "They are an EX for a reason" and "NEVER have sex with an ex"........ Amazingly... The same man that has been out of my life for YEARS... Suddenly comes in with a GREAT (under the table job" that works him about 8 days a month)
Stupidly.... I believed... For a moment....
NOW.... There is a GREAT TRAGEDY that has caused him (and his 3 teenagers) to need a place to rest their heads ....
I LOVE my step-..... But my life is SOOOOO calm compared to raising them for the 8 yrs I did..... I CANNOT go BACK!!!! My lil apt has no room, I have NO DESIRE to give up my lazy weekends.... NOR the desire to cook/clean up after 5 instead of 2...... I guess I am feeling SELFISH.....
But I DO NOT CARE!!!!! This is MY home!!!!! I fought LONG AND HARD for it!!!!!!!!
I will ALLOW visitors!!!!! But NO SQUATTERS!!!!!!!!
I LOVE MY !!!! BUT..... THEY HAVE A MOMMA AND A STEP-DADDY!
And I need to be allowed to be ME for the FIRST time in 20 yrs.....

AkCookielicious 66F
81 posts
1/29/2010 6:13 am

 ((((((Siona))))))) ME time is OKAAAAY gf......And your allowed to take all the ME TIME you need. Live your life hunie, it's the only one you get, don't live it for someone else, they have thier own.


EROTICFAN2C 67M
244 posts
11/19/2010 12:32 am

 I think it's time you post in your blog again. Almost a year since your last blog post! Looking forward to reading it.


Snozog 64M/60F
545 posts
5/29/2014 11:24 am

 We wonder where folks get to post-HotMatch.com and that they find a safe/sane space to be in. We hope/pray that your wounds healed and some joy has returned!
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