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I just need to vent. I received an email here from someone I have never had any kind of contact with that really upset me today. First, he called me honey. I am NOT his honey. Second, he told me black men don't listen to CCR, Bob Seger, and the Eagles, so I should stick top my own race. He told me not to make a mistake that would embarrass my family by dating outside of my race. WHO THE HELL IS HE TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO?? WHO IS HE TO TELL ME WHO TO DATE AND WHO NOT TO??? I have no idea who this person is, but he is obviously an asshole. It is white men like him who make me enjoy the company of black men all the more! Thanks for letting me vent. By the way, he was immediately blocked.
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Enough is enough!
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Posted:May 22, 2010 6:32 am
Last Updated:Nov 26, 2010 5:34 pm
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Well, Im thinking its finally over. Too many lies. Too much cheating. I think everything that was ever said to me was a lie--just to get in my bed. Like this past Christmas. Supposed to spend the day together. Texted me and said his replacement pulled a no-show. No call or anything. They finally found him 8 or 9 hours later stuck on the side of the road in Connecticut. I lived in New England. Grew up there. What a crock. Ruined my holiday all to shit. How could someone think I would be that gullible to believe that? Did he think I was THAT in love with him??? Little stuck on himself, wouldn't you say? The day we met, he said he would be divoreced in 6 months. That was 3 years ago. He is still married. Gave all kinds of excuses for that one. First lie. I was always eager to change my work schedule, call in sick, leave early just to see him. He never once did the same. It always had to be on HIS schedule, whether it was good for me or not, whether I already had other plans. It always had to revolve aroung HIM. Then the pain he has inflicted--even after I have told him time and time again how much he is hurting me--with the comments/testimonials for other women all over the web. Not one for me. He is obviously not concerned with my feelings whatsoever. For 2 years, I gave him nothing but my love, attention, mind, body, and soul. I thought I could trust--even with his job taking him all over the world for months on end. Maybe that is all a lie too. When we started he told me he deleted his profile from this site. Another lie. Its the exact same profile. Same "friends" (except those newly added). Same joining date (July 13, 2007). He never even tried to hide his lies. The trust is gone--and has been since I found the first comment on another woman's page. Without trust, there is nothing. Now I find one of his "friends" quoting his profile, saying he is the "most greatest lover" she ever had. Well, Im glad that is true for her. Not me. Never would try anything I wanted--popsicles, public sex, in the shower, etc. Again, even after discussing it with him. Hell, I even bought his favorite flavor of popsicle! The whole box ended up in the trash. Maybe the only true "realadmirer" he is is of himself.
So, now what? What do I do? Do I want him in my life? I have no idea. Sometimes, yes. Sometimes, no. I truly believe I deserve a much better person in my life. Someone honest. Someone I can trust. Someone who will consider my feelings. Someone who will not hurt me in such a public way. I think that hurts me just as much as the actually cheating. The public way he has made it well known he is sleeping and involved with other women. Major slap in the face. He has taken everything from me. My self esteem. My confidence. I have nothing left.
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Testimonials and the pain they inflict
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Posted:May 18, 2010 12:24 pm
Last Updated:Sep 1, 2010 6:53 pm
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"No one more personable...passionate...exciting...sexy...
unforgettable...INCREDIBLE" and "Incomparable passion...
confidence...sex appeal... Looks, attitude, imagination... No one could ask for more in a woman". Two very beatiful testimonials/comments. Too bad they aren't on MY PAGE!!!! I guess I just can't compare anymore. He must not be so "amazed" anymore. And Im told he doesn't like to "put our affairs out there for the world to see". Just doesn't mind slinging all over the net for others. Nice!
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Funerals
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Posted:May 2, 2010 5:25 pm
Last Updated:Jul 22, 2010 4:28 pm
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What is the point of funerals? To pay the deceased your respects??? They're dead. They don't know. Why don't we just tell people in our lives how we feel about them before they die. Makes no sense to me. I think funerals are just so the people left behind can feel good about themselves. Selfish.
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God and death
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Posted:May 2, 2010 5:23 pm
Last Updated:May 8, 2010 7:03 pm
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I will tell you right off I do not believe in God any longer. But--if there is a God and he decides who lives and dies and he's supposed to be so merciful--why does he make some people live who want to die while killing those who want to live??? Answer that one for me. And saying "he has a plan and only he knows what that plan is" doesn't cut it.
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Consideration
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Posted:Apr 25, 2010 12:25 am
Last Updated:May 9, 2013 11:44 am
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Whatever happened to consideration for others??? Why is there such a lack of thinking of other's feelings or schedules these days? It seems like no one is concerned about anyone but themselves these days. Do people realize a simple phone call, text or email could mean the world to another? Let someone know plans have changed in a timely manner so someone is not waiting for you!!! They could make other plans. Let someone know you're thinking of them, especially when you know they are going through a difficult time. Never know--just might put a much needed smile on their face! It usually doesn't take that much of your time or money to make someone else's day. Show them they are worth the 5 seconds it takes to text them. Send flowers to their work. Goes a long way! People just don't realize how much pain and hurt they cause. Too wrapped up in their own little world. only thinking of themselves, their wants, their needs. Step out of yourself once in a while.
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Posted:Feb 18, 2010 4:32 am
Last Updated:May 18, 2010 4:52 pm
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Ever take stock--an honest look at your life--and realize you have nothing??? Birthdays are good for that.
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Mom was right again!
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Posted:Jan 28, 2010 4:38 am
Last Updated:Sep 24, 2010 5:05 am
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My mother always told me: "You're looking for eutopia. You will never find it." Whether it be where I live, my job, the man Im with, she was right. I will NEVER find it. And if that's the case, what's the point????? There is no point of going on if Im not going to find what Im looking for. Im tired of looking. Im tired of hoping. Im tired of getting my hopes up and then crushed. Its exhausting. Im tired. This world is not for me.
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What in the world????????
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Posted:Dec 29, 2009 3:16 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2010 5:41 pm
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Just today I have received 3 emails from guys who are looking to either "hook up" or "fuck" today. This is the first email or contact of any kind I have had with them. Are they out of their friggin minds???????????? I have absolutely NO INTEREST in having sex with strangers. Obviously, they didn't even bother to read my profile. If you can't take the small amount of time it takes to read my profile, why waste the same amount of time it takes to email me???? Don't waste your precious time.
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Mother was right! Again!
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Posted:Nov 1, 2009 5:51 am
Last Updated:Dec 30, 2009 4:08 am
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I know now what my mother meant when she told me "There's a fine line between love and hate". Growing up I didnt believe her, but she was right--AGAIN. It's confusing as hell. Up, down. Love, hate. Desire, repulsion. (The repulsion has gone away, but it was there in full force at one point.) And this feeling is all on me, but JEALOUSY. That feeling is definitely there, and it won't be going away anytime soon.
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Posted:Oct 31, 2009 2:14 pm
Last Updated:Feb 28, 2010 3:44 am
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Some people just amaze me. I receive an email from someone I have never had any contact with whatsoever. All it says is "Wanna fuck?" Do they actually think I am going to say yes???? What kind of person would think that would work for me? If this person has sex that indiscriminately, I wouldn't want to be in the same room with him, nevermind in the same bed!!!!
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How????
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Posted:Apr 27, 2008 2:32 pm
Last Updated:Sep 24, 2010 5:06 am
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How can people in this day in age still be prejudice?? I don't get it. I have never been prejudice. I was not brought up that way. Is it the way they are brought up? Is it ignorance? Is it stupidity? And why must they try to change the way I feel??? "Stay with your race". "Don't go outside the race". Do they actually think they will change my mind?? Who the hell is anyone to tell me what to do? I am an adult and I will make my own decisions. It's no one's business anyway. I just don't get it. I really don't. There are people out there that make me embarrassed to be Caucasian.
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Posted:Jun 13, 2007 4:05 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2010 6:01 pm
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What the hell is so wrong with people today? Why can't people just be honest about what their intentions are? If you just want a one-night stand, say so. Granted you won't be getting that from me, but at least be honest. If you are just looking for a sometimes thing, say so. If you are looking for long term, say it. I just don't get the damn games people play. I am sick of it. It just ruins it for the people waiting down the line. People think I don't trust people because I am from the north and it's "a nothern thing". Maybe people from the north are just a little more cautious. If you want to communicate with me, BE HONEST. NO GAMES. NO LIES.
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