So They Change The Site Again ...
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Posted:Jun 3, 2013 10:43 am
Last Updated:May 23, 2024 6:48 am
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What is it with this site ? Do they want to drive people away or are is money the only driver behind the site ?
Slowly but surely, they are removing all reason for anybody to be on the site unless they pay for the privilege ... and even paying for the privilege is not worth the effort.
The 'Personal Network' is now a useless tool for any non-paying member. I thought the whole point of the Personal Network was to enable one to keep in contact with the close friends made on the site.
But the latest 'changes' on the site (made a few months ago) has killed the idea of a Network of friends. You cannot view anything your friends want you to see, neither can you view or post bulletins.
This site is slowly killing off the members it needs to thrive. Many of the friends I made on here have moved on because of the changes. Unless you are prepared (or able) to pay for membership, then there is so little one can do on the site that it is not really worth being here anymore ... especially when there are a plethora of other sites where you have far more flexibility.
Perhaps the site should concentrate more on advertising than trying to get everyone to pay for the site. I have been a paying member on this site in the past, but found that the 'benefits' simply did not justify the expense.
This site is losing members left, right and centre... and will continue haemorraging members unless they come to their senses and start reversing the ludicrous decisions of late. There is more than enough choice of other sites and until this site ups it's game, it will lose out to those other sites.
It just aint the same anymore !!
Do you agree ?
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Raining
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Posted:May 17, 2012 4:19 pm
Last Updated:May 17, 2012 4:22 pm
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It's raining,
It's raining,
It's raining hard and fast.
And just when I think it cannot last,
It rains some more
On a chastened heart.
It's raining,
It's raining, over me.
It's raining,
It's raining,
It's raining each time I open my eyes.
I hear the truth, and then the lies,
The whispers,
The rumours,
On the bridge of sighs.
It's raining,
It's raining, inside.
It's raining,
It's raining,
It's raining from cruel words.
I hear them all those poisonous verbs,
They are spoken aloud,
They sound absurd.
It's raining,
It's raining, as I die.
It's raining,
It's raining,
More and more it comes down each day.
Persistently, come what may,
Damning indictment,
As I slowly decay.
It's raining,
It's raining, again.
It's raining,
It's raining,
Dark clouds obscure my sky.
Tumbling down,
Far and wide,
Drowning belief,
Cascading by.
It's raining,
It's raining, don't know why.
It's raining,
It's raining,
Do you realise these are tears ?
Can you understand the pain behind
All the irrational fears ?
They weep, they fall,
They take my all.
It's raining,
It's raining, from my eyes.
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Fare Thee Well
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Posted:Feb 9, 2012 1:05 am
Last Updated:Jun 3, 2013 8:32 am
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It's a crazy way to wake up each day
Swimming against the tide,
So many times running things through my mind
Knowing the flame I once had has died.
What I want and what I desire
A conundrum I cannot resolve,
Because my head is swathed in misted mire,
Around which confusion revolves.
The hands reach out with passion aflame
Is it fair to allow them into my world ?
I cannot inflict this pain on those would-be friends
While everything I am unfurls.
The touch is desired and warmth required,
But it stings whenever close,
Should I turn my back and walk away
From the feelings desired the most ?
In the background there runs so much spite and fear
Am I a dissolving refugee ?
I must clear out the confusion and doubt
Liberate my heart to regain the essence of me.
Slowly I retract further into myself
For I know I must pull away,
Until such time when I know I am fine
And ready to come out and play.
The game is hard when the soul disbarred
Unable to give one's all,
More than I can ask for anyone to walk this path
Because I fear I will break their soul.
How to unravel the fears and avoid the tears
Is the question posed each morn,
Yet still the answers continue to elude
In suffocating form
Disseminate the doubts and sweep them out
These are the things that I must do,
The only way I will be able to truly say
That I am ready to begin anew.
In my stagnated state I must trust to fate
In this tunnel light will appear,
Lead me out to clarity dispelling the doubt
As everything becomes clear.
I need the space so that I can face
The barriers that block the way,
It may be a long walk but one I will not baulk
As I take it day by day.
So I must take my leave to finally achieve
An open road ahead,
I will say farewell and wish you well
For I am not ready yet.
The memories linger and emotions shimmer
Of friends both lost and gained,
I remember all and walk so tall
With each I have retained.
I hope one day to return this way
To reacquaint with all I know,
But for now I slip away and bow
The final curtain call.
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Self-Destruct
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Posted:Jan 29, 2012 9:47 am
Last Updated:May 11, 2013 8:30 am
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When your heart is screaming to numb the pain
To walk away from all the disdain
Do you chase your dreams or trust in fate ?
Do you wake up and realise just that little too late ?
When the tears are real and you have had enough
It's all too much to bear and life so tough
Do you simply flow along with the tide ?
Do you run away and hide ?
When the clouds are gathering in darkened gloom
Like the world has become a windowless room
Do you take a chance and run for the light ?
Do you wilt away without a fight ?
When love is staring you straight in the face
All you want is a loving embrace
Do you take the hand held out for you ?
Do you hope that this is love so true ?
When all is said and deeds are done
There is a world out there in which to have some fun
Do you simply think that you have no luck ?
Do you press the button that says 'self-destruct' ?
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Insecurities
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Posted:Dec 27, 2011 10:37 am
Last Updated:May 18, 2013 11:03 pm
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What is it about me that brings such venom ... from other men on this site ?
Those who know me will know that I regularly chat in the rooms on this site, mostly in the UK Room, but also on occasion in other rooms.
I pride myself on behaving exactly the same in the rooms as I am in real life. I am what I am, take it or leave it.
I get on with most of the women in all rooms that I enter. I think that most see me as a friendly face that they can talk to, flirt with and generally have a laugh with.
However, it seems to me that most guys in the same rooms seem to take umbrage with the fact that I can talk to women with ease and quite freely. Now don't get me wrong. I am no lothario. I do not think I am any great catch by any measure, for any woman. But it is noticeable of late how venomous the reactions of many men are in these rooms...and I don't understand why.
I treat everyone with the same respect when I am in the rooms - male and female. Everyone is a potential friend in my eyes. I am well aware that this is a sex site, but I do not go with the mentality that everyone I talk to is a potential sex partner. I have met many people from this site in social environments. The vast majority of them turn out to be good friends who keep in regular contact. That is all I ask of anyone I befriend on this site.
But it seems to me that some guys simply cannot, or will not, accept that this can be the case here. There are quite a few guys on here who I do consider as friends. I've even had a drink with several, along with female members of the site. We have become a growing and thriving social circle. They are not the ones I am talking about in this case.
So why do some guys have so much insecurities that rise to the surface so readily in the chat rooms ?
It certainly isn't because I am stepping on anybody's toes. I respect the fact that some people are, or may be, potential couples. In fact, I encourage that. But I don't see why that should mean that I cannot speak to the ladies in question.
This is probably more of a question of their (the guys) insecurities than anything else. But it does piss me off that this is becoming more and more of a familiar scenario when I am in a chat room. All I ask to be able to visit a chat room and have a bit of fun and banter without the nastiness. But more and more I am being met with venomous remarks and hearsay. It really is starting to spoil what can be a great and friendly website.
Why are some people so (for want of a better word) jealous ?
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Save Me
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Posted:Dec 7, 2011 12:02 pm
Last Updated:Dec 9, 2011 7:15 am
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The emptiness sports rambunctious barbs
That rip at the soul and tear it apart
Where rampant ambivalence is splintered whole
In shards so sharp midst a broken soul
Waiting in silence while the heart screams forth
In desolate hope of a broken cause
That chastens ambition and spills only a frown
A Jester no longer the fun-filled clown
Oh save me from myself
Is it a lie to yearn for the best ?
Is this life a neverending test ?
Cascading apathies that stalk in shadows
Ignoring the tell-tale signs that follow
A solemn figure that walks alone
Testimony to something that cannot be bought or sold
Acrimonious feelings that are caged inside
Of raging passion that is always denied
Oh save me from myself
What is left to weep and mourn ?
Why must tainted dreams be so forlorn ?
Artificial insanity that curdles truth
It seems so real but where is the proof ?
Animosity is denied its living breath
Cage it deep for it deserves nothing less
Despite all that has passed bring forth a smile
Or surrender meekly with little style
Oh save me from myself
So hush the darkened demeanour deep
Let not tears escape nor weep
Kindle the beauty held inside
Deny the anguish room to reside
For there beats a cadence of molten gold
Fighting hard that refuses to fold
Ubiquitous charisma of brazen smile
That will not be restrained or reviled
Oh save me from myself
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Vacant Lullabies
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Posted:Nov 18, 2011 4:40 am
Last Updated:May 20, 2012 7:56 am
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Where is the promise once so alive
The fleeting kiss
Intertwined lives
Stealing dreams and creating hope
Fantasy figure
And so much more
The smile that lit up a thousand stars
Captured my heart
So near yet far
Will you be there one day in time ?
Awaiting my touch
To be just mine
There are things I want
There are things I've had
There are things I desire oh so bad
But these tears are real
They won't congeal
Because I miss you
The eyes that pierced my open heart
Lips I tasted
Right from the start
The hair that flowed in a stiffened breeze
The hands I held
The lady I teased
Forbidden fruit I dared to hold
A fleeting moment
When I was feeling bold
Now absent from my daily chores
Emptiness screams
Want you so much more
There are things that I want
There are things that I've seen
There are things that really should have been
It felt so right
It felt so true
And still I miss you
The last time we touched so intimately true
In tender embrace
Just me and you
The world seemed such a smaller place
Together as one
Sensuality and grace
And we parted with a lasting kiss
Longing looks
Nothing amiss
Separate ways but will they ever again cross
To salve this heart
Negate the loss
There are things that I want
There are things that I've touched
There are things I really want so much
They will always linger
Even in times so blue
I really miss you
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Rain
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Posted:Nov 13, 2011 9:19 pm
Last Updated:Jan 23, 2012 1:55 pm
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Here I sit alone
Nostalgic and aimless
All the time I thought you cared
Always remembering
The distance in your eyes
What became of the love we shared ?
Watching the darkness shroud
Everything about me
Feeling hopelessness remain
Chasing memories
Unfulfilled remembrance
That began with open arms
Far away you said goodbye
To all the dreams we shared
A feeling I can't let go
How can I go on this way ?
Unremitting melodies
That play to remind me what we stood for
Feeling enmity
Emptiness and vagueness
Of how we parted on our way
As you walked away
Casting what we had adrift
I never knew how much I'd pay
Chastened emotions
Neverending darkness
Of all the things we could have been
Where did it all go wrong ?
Our hopeless situation ?
Is there nothing more to say ?
Far away you live your days
Without ever wanting me
My broken heart dismays
I've touched your lips
In a never ending kiss
And now the curtains fall upon our romance
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You
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Posted:Sep 26, 2011 5:32 pm
Last Updated:Jan 23, 2012 1:56 pm
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I sit here 'neath the night sky
My companion is the dark
Longing for the taste of your lips
Your being in my heart
Is it just a pipe dream ?
Will it ever be true ?
Every time I close my eyes
To sleep all I see is you
But you're not here, you're somewhere else
Hopes remain unfulfilled
I know you are beyond my grasp
A chastened fantasy but still
The soliloquy runs rampant through my head
Torturing my soul
Of something that I cannot have
To kiss, to touch, to hold
The twilight hours while away
The sun begins to shine
To open up another day
When you will not be mine
I miss your smile, your eyes, your hair
And wish you were here to embrace
But the one thing I will always miss the most
Is simply your beautiful face
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The Door
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Posted:Sep 22, 2011 11:45 pm
Last Updated:Sep 22, 2011 11:46 pm
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The bitter taste
Spurns the day
Wallowing ambivalence
Come what may
No longer needed
Castaway
I sit alone
You walk away
Why the silence to break my heart ?
What happened to the love we had at the start ?
So darkness take me
I care no more
You have gone out through that door
Minutes stall
Pass me by
Heart so cold
I know not why
Where once was love
To warm the soul
Empty spaces
A wailing call
Why the silence that breaks my heart ?
I always thought we would never part
Now forsaken
I care no more
For you have gone out through that door
Questions asked
Answers unknown
Nagging doubts
A silent phone
What did I wrong ?
Enigma to be solved
It was you
Around which my life revolved
Why the silence to break my heart ?
Chastened now I fall apart
Anaemic dreams
Come to the fore
You have gone out through that door
Weeping rain
Audition my eyes
Sparkle brightly
There were no lies
Somnambulent rhapsodies
Take me away
I can no longer bear
This slow decay
Why the silence that broke my heart ?
I thought our love was a work of art
My days are numbered
I can breathe no more
Because you have walked out through that door
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Self Belief
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Posted:Sep 20, 2011 11:19 pm
Last Updated:Jan 23, 2012 1:58 pm
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Affluent enmity resounds in kind
Of words so twisted, bitter and blind
Cruel outcome of honest deeds
Darkened traits of impure needs
Sarcastic neurosis scarring untold pain
Clinging to a dream so clearly in vain
Tortured resolve to a negative impasse
Tears stream but congeal at the last
Wake up, breathe
Taste the air so pure
Stop wasting heartbeats
Or acting so demure
You have all you require
So take a chance
The person that answers
Maybe your shot at romance
Prosthetic emotions stain all you hold dear
Ambition stunted by your very own decree
Ambivalent actions rupture belief
Contradictory outbursts nurture the grief
Serendipity beckons but a simple step too far
A cloudy night obscures your guiding star
Amnesiac unaware of being awake
Capitulating so easily into the current state
Step out of the shadows
Into the light
You are so much more
If you would just stand up and fight
You believe all you hear
But deny what you feel
Yet know deep down in your heart
That what is there is so real
Combatant feelings wrecking confidence
As you continue to absorb all of of the nonsense
Crumpled belief seep through your actions
Accentuating your attitude and pure revulsion
A friendly embrace turned away without reason
Despite all within you that continues pleading
For love and compassion to swallow you whole
But for that to happen you must be bold
Kindle that flame
It hasn't diminished
Recognise your dignity
You are far from finished
Open those eyes
Welcome what you see
Realise your potential
Be everything you could be
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Unexpected Muse
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Posted:Sep 15, 2011 11:56 pm
Last Updated:Sep 16, 2011 1:32 am
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Her hair, her face,
Her walk so full of grace.
Her eyes, her smile,
A demanour that beguiles.
She walks into the room
And lights up the darkest night,
A wonder to behold
A beautiful sight
Her touch, her breath,
Her unrequited style.
Her taste, her aroma,
An overwheming charisma.
Kindling such charm
With effortless ease,
Enveloped with her warmth
And her sensual tease.
Her memory, my dream,
Over so fast it seems.
Her influence, her legacy,
So wild, untamed and carefree.
As the darkness engulfs
In the cold night air,
I walk home contented
A beaming smile I bear.
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The Maddening Crowd
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Posted:Dec 30, 2010 1:13 am
Last Updated:May 23, 2024 6:48 am
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See them, foreboding morass of menace,
Laughter cascading out into the streets,
Like a creeping, tentacled vine.
Seething in intensity,
Writhing like a distraught animal,
Pulsating movement throbbing in time to a musical frivolity.
Slip by, sneak by,
Lest be infected by the all-embracing rancour,
No place in the bosom of that alien beast allied to alcoholic grandeur.
Clink of glasses stab at the mind in articulate massage,
Luminescent smoke-charged atmosphere escapes to the world,
Quiet cul-de-sac corner of the dimly lit bar provides the shadows.
Encased in twilight, sip from the nectar,
Anxious eyes darting wary stares,
Multitudes enter one by one, encroaching on space.
Decibels rise, sight lights up,
Breathing becomes a challenge,
Panic, delirium, desperately searching for a way out to freedom.
Rising urge of overwhelming emotion overflowing the larynx,
Catch a smile pointing in this direction, voices addressing,
Skin oozes sweat, hands tremble, nails snap nervously.
Lips rouged red by over zealous incisors,
Legs twitch uncontrollably as they struggle to wrest command,
Bolt for the darkness through the scrum of humanity socialising.
Gasp for the cold air of the night,
As vessels are put to flight in passing,
Run, run, run, run away as the lungs are burnt by the frosty touch.
Streaming tears bleed on tightened cheeks,
Light the cigarette, inhale the calming force,
Safe once again in the open spaces, safe from the maddening crowd.
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