The first thing that i remember on this journey is wanting to see the wife have sex. it stated in the '70s with the thoughts of swinging. Those thoughts morphed into just her have sex. Then there was the humiliation aspect of her having sex with others became a part of all the fantasies. Unfortunately i lost her to cancer in our early 50s.
This led to lots of internet surfing. I think it was bout this time i learned the term for my fantasy, cuckolding. I also discovered bdsm online and was surprised how it excited me. That is when the submission started. Duration this time i met my second wife and we started playing with femdom. now my fantasies are submissive cuckolding. It was during one on my sessions with the wife that she suggested cocksucking. A few years later i was visiting an adult book store and went into the glory hole and sucked my first cock.
There it is out there i said it i am a SUBMISSIVE BISEXUAL CUCKOLD.
I have to look back and see how this all started and that will be the beginning of this blog. It has been a long journey so this may take a while but please be patient and ask questions.