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Once upon a time......
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Once upon a time...... There was a woman who needed a stroke of luck...who was so far removed from a single style of life that it was almost a lost cause ...destined to grow old alone...who needed to find some life and excitement, didnt know how to dress up, didnt know how to shop for clothes, had no confidence in her appearance left, never went out in the evenings ...who desperately needed to be loved...who hadnt dated for years and spent her life just working and keeping her single parent family going the best she could ...living with the grim resignation and emotionally debilitating feeling of never being able to find another loving relationship and not even knowing how to have adult fun anymore...Oh dear it had become a life of duty and work and perpetual hassles and living like a couple without the other half! Loneliness that was killing her slowly...and tearing her apart... Yes that was me from year 2000 until April 2006 when I apprehensively took a nervous first step to look for a man by logging onto Dating Direct hoping it was going to be the solution...Little did I know where the wicked internet was going to take me and how it was going to change me and my life forever for the better I might add! It was however was not going to be an easy path to true love and not a quick fix either... Time consuming...totally consuming....addictive and it literally fed my desire to relieve my loneliness everyday by logging on...I felt a rush of adrenalin for years everytime I logged on to search for men...It makes you feel like you are doing something positive in changing your life and makes you feel one of many...makes you feel tantilisingly close to men! I had never used the computer up until then...my young used it more than me! I didnt own a mobile phone until I needed to date and I was quickly told people would think me odd if I didnt own one!! I even went to have my photo professionally taken and hated the sight of everyone of the photos ..I looked shy and coy and unsexy and in my mind unattractive really... After much deliberation I put the best one up onto Dating Direct wrote a profile intro and waited...I browsed thousands of men and shortlisted some men who I approached... I remember my first phone calls in April 2006...I was completely tongue tied and lost for words...as it happens Jim was very chatty and he is still my friend today...He realised that I was totally lost in all the newness of it all and has helped me in so many small ways...When we dated in the summer of 2006 I physically shook for a good hour over lunch...I cant explain why I did that but the significance of going out on dates after 16 years was so immense that irrationally I did and it happened on another occasion with someone else aswell...To be honest I felt emotionally like a 15 year old again and had no idea whether I was attractive to men anymore...I also had the heightened emotions of a aswell and although I didnt fall in love with every man I met I certainly had the energy for crushes and flings! I was stirred up in a way that promised so much.... To be continued...................... |
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