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Some Tuesday thoughts...
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Some Tuesday thoughts... Update on my mom: Yesterday she was supposed to have a major test to see if the cancer has shrunk or gotten smaller with the chemo. Unfortunately she was to have a dye test done, to see if the cancer had gotten smaller and she would have cat scan done to see if the cancer has shrunk. The problem was the nurse messed up the dye test and the dye oozed out of her arm and the test was ruined. Along with my mom can't move her arm now and it will take her a couple of days for her to try and redo the test all over again. On top of , my mom's face is starting to swell and she's looking worse than I've ever seen her before under the chemo. I'll be honest, I'm scared for her, I really am. I know I have to accept one day my parents will pass on. It's a reality I know will happen. I just hate seeing her in such pain like this. ********** One of the plusses I have working alone is when someone at work pisses me off, they don't know because I can swear my ass off at work and because I work in a remote location all by myself, no one knows if I'm mad at them or not. I am grateful though, because today I was swearing up a storm as some of the stupid people work my company. And I'm grateful I have a full time job. So while I might have to deal with some stupid people, at least I've got a job that's steady. I hope it stays that way. ********** I think I figured out why some women don't like me or my profile. It's because I'm so real and honest, it scares them the hell away from me. Some of them probably can't handle it. Of course, it's just an excuse I tell myself. I honestly don't know why my luck has been so bad here. ********** I have 19 more days left of GOLD status here. I probably will need to alter my profile again soon to reflect I'm going to be a standard member. I'll be honest, I have talked to a couple of women here, but for the most part, it's been pretty much a big failure for the 3 months. I've been giving some serious thought to shutting down my profile altogether, but I know some of you actually do read my blog and like reading it. I'm debating staying here, but I do like to blog and write stuff. However I don't know what will happen or not. What do you think? Should I stay or should I go? Do I fully leave and shut down my profile completely, or stay to at least blog and keep posting? I'm not really sure what to do. I also talked to one of my friends here and she's even thinking of shutting down her profile and blog here as well, so I have no clue if I'm going to stay, partially stay and just blog, or just shut down altogether and move on. I will say this...if anyone wants to give me their personal info to where you want to be friends, or however you want to stay in touch, give me your info now, because I'm planning on not renewing here at HotMatch.com. I've come to the conclusion while this might work for some people, I tried it give it one more shot and I don't think it's going to work here. I'm really debating on giving another place to do some online dating elsewhere, but I'm not sure what I want to do yet. I know that I had to at least give this place one more shot to see if it would have worked or not, and honestly it hasn't. And I know a couple of you have said it wouldn't, but I had to try. Regardless, you've got 19 days left to contact me, so if you want, send me your info via message or leave a private post upstairs in my blog to contact me if you like. *********** So we're now in June. Which should be summer. But to me, it doesn't feel like summer. It just feels like any other normal day. To me it just doesn't feel like it's summer. Probably because I don't have anything planned for this summer to be honest. I have the days off, but really...I just don't feel like doing anything special. I'm not sure what to do, and even if I did, I know I feel like I need a good couple of solid days off to rest and relax. I don't really yet have the money saved up to go anywhere. But I need to do something. Go somewhere. I dunno, I just feel a bit down is all. *********** OK that's all I got for the time being. I'll post something else later. Who can you call on to save the day? Why none other than... Agent  |
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I just want to express to you that your blog does wonders for me. I am in a dark period in my life right now and coming to peruse your thoughts and feelings really helps me to understand that thing do get better. I hope you investigate what happens if you make your profile " unavailable" -will you still be able to access the blogs? I had a different profile name many years ago and chose not to bring it back to life. I was fortunate to meet three very special men from here- one of whom remains a dear friend. one who chose at some point to drift away, and one is deceased. I also met some A** hats and liars as well and I have been stood up. I would really hope for your eventual happiness that you give it some more time- 90 days is really not much in the grand scope of life (Virtual Symposium Group) use Virtual Symposium Group
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Thanks for reading! Who can you call on to save the day? Why none other than... Agent
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