A less than amazing life
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Posted:Aug 14, 2016 2:17 pm
Last Updated:May 24, 2024 5:26 am
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How can I tell you how I feel?
My Master, who I love and revere, and I had the most amazing fight a week or so ago now.
And why? Because of my stupid insecurities over whether he really loves me the way I love him.
When we first met he told me about all the wonderful things he wants for me; about all his plans and dreams. It was so outrageous I scarcely believed it would happen. But as we have grown together he has helped me to grow and become the person that I am today. My life as his bitch has fulfilled me like I have never been fulfilled in my entire life.
We have had many men in our games and the odd couple that I have managed to play with and he is always happy for me. But throughout he has never quite managed to get involved for whatever reason. Even on his Birthday we were with a couple and after her and I had a wonderful time her Dom pulled the pin before Master could have her. He has talked about threesomes with a woman and I know it is his dream, as we have had many with men.
But somehow every time we get close to a woman it does not work out.
We met a brat recently. We had dinner and it was decided that next time she was in Auckland we would play. She joined our group and was in the chatroom every Sunday. Master and her would get involved in intellectual sexy chat and I found myself becoming more and more agitated. I found myself becoming very negative and as the time drew closer for the meet, every chat session would end badly for us. I even made derogatory comments to my Master like “You won’t be able to handle her.” I am so sorry for that because he can handle anybody and I know this.
Last Sunday our chat session ended in a terrible fight. It was the night when we had the largest turnout ever in the room with several members actually joining the group on the spot so they could join in. Master was doing his thing where he can hold down conversations with so many people at once. One of the new members was talking all about his sub and how wonderful she is. I sat there trying to keep up with all the conversations but Master was not telling this person how wonderful I am. Then he began to talk about me and at that moment I told him that he was disrespectful to me by not saying how wonderful he thinks I am. He pointed at the half typed words about me and said that he was just doing it. That was true. He was. He had already asked me if I was alright as I was quite negative. I told him of course I was.
He got up and said that he was done and that I should take over. A few weeks earlier after another issue with our prospective lady friend he gave me the chair and announced that each week everybody could talk to me directly so that I could have my say because I had begun to continually chirp in his ear that he should say this and he should say that. But it was all about his relationship with one person.
So after last weeks chat he told me I was jealous. I refused to admit it. We fought and he yelled at me and I yelled back.
That night he cancelled out of our scheduled meeting with her. I believe she was gutted. She wanted to know why. She thought it was something she had done. In truth it was. She was being herself. I could picture a scene where we were all together and Master and her were bouncing off each other like they do and I was sitting alone miserable. So I sabotaged the event. I am so deeply sorry the only way I can say it is in my blog.
Master has not been on HotMatch.com since then. He took away my collar and he didn’t even call me bitch for most of this week even though it slipped out once or twice and each time it did I felt the warmth in my heart.
I begged him not to do this but he said that we can never go back to where we were. I was devastated to be honest. I have done a lot of soul searching since then and tried to get him to change his mind.
Then he sat me down the other night and said something really profound.
He asked me,
“On that day those two years ago when you pulled me aside at that party and asked me if I would have coffee with you, if you had known that you would be standing here with me right now, living together for the rest of our lives, even in a vanilla relationship that we are now likely to have, how would you have felt?” He asked me to think hard.
My answer was,
“I would have said it was a dream come true.” But now I have to compare it to what I have actually had and I have been to a place that so few people will ever be blessed enough to go. Compared to that place, this is nothing but if this is all there is for me, I will take it with open arms and try to regain my Master’s faith that I live for him. Even though my petty jealousy and insecurity has really crushed him as I have led him to believe that I am secure in his love and proved that I am not, this week has actually given me additional strength because he has shown me that even though he gave up his own desires, he did not give up on me.
So now he has asked me to write down for him what my ideal life will look like from now till the end. This is so simple for me. My perfect life will look like it did two or three weeks ago. With my collar firmly locked around my neck and kneeling at my Masters feet. I will do anything for him. I want him to fulfil his every dream.
I will start by reaching out to our lady friend who will know who I am talking about, to give me another chance. I promise that there will be no more issues. I welcome the way you stimulate my Master’s mind and body. I know now, that I stimulate him in ways that no other human being can.
Humbly serving my Master
the bitch.
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The job is done
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Posted:Aug 2, 2016 1:34 pm
Last Updated:May 29, 2017 3:54 pm
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Hi everyone, I have done it. Got my nipples pierced on the weekend they are now 4 days old and are looking great. Of course they are still quite tender which is to be expected as it takes 4 to 6 weeks to fully heal. But Master says I am a quick healer so it will take less time for sure. I am just making sure that I take care of them the best I can so there will be no problems, I have heard of some horror stories but that did not put me off on having them done. I have had to take Panadol on a regular basis for the slight pain I have endured, but it is all worth it as they look so wonderful. Cant wait for Master to play with them and adorn them with jewellery it will be a dream come true.
I am done with all my piercings now and will enjoy them all, while we were there we also got some other jewellery like 2 bellybars, some new pussy rings which by the way I have in, some new nipple bars with hearts and wings on them and some rings with jems on them and a new adornment for my collar. Master is so good to me I love and respect him in every way. I want to be the best bitch he will ever have and give all the enjoyment and pleasure he deserves. I adore him so much he completes my life in every way. I am so fulfilled indeed. Happy Master happy life forever!
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Counting down to the big Day
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Posted:Jul 26, 2016 3:56 pm
Last Updated:Aug 2, 2016 1:13 pm
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Hi there all, Its Wednesday here in NZ, and I am counting down the days now for having my nipples pierced for Master. He is really looking forward to it. I have three days to go before the big event, I am a little nervous but am very excited as well. Cant wait to see the end result, I just have to take very good care of them when they are done, as I have heard some stories where women have had a bit of trouble with them. But I am sure it will not be me, they will look awesome and will enhance my body in so many ways. Next week we are meeting up with a couple from HotMatch.com and we cant wait to show them my nipples and see what they think. All together I will have 11 piercings which I am very happy with. Master loves all my piercings and cant wait to show me off to the world. I just cant wait!!!
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going out into town
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Posted:Jul 17, 2016 9:37 pm
Last Updated:Jul 26, 2016 3:46 pm
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Last week on Friday we decided to go out to Club Sparty, we had been thinking about going there for a while. I have been looking forward to it all week, so when Friday came along I got even more excited. So when 4pm came I started having a few wines to unwind, got ready to get dressed into my sexy gear a black body stocking crotchless
my black lacey mini dress and my black ankle boots that Master really loves. It took Master a while to get into the mood to go out as he had a lot on his mind from the day he had at work. But he had a few wines and started to unwind and watched me getting ready. Before we went out to go to the Club tonight we are meeting up with a woman from HotMatch.com, which is very exciting. We are meeting her for a drink and chat at the Dark . Hope all will go well. Once Master was ready we got into the car to go out for a great night. Master and I had a lovely evening with our lady friend she was easy to talk to she was very pleasant and we had a lot in common with each other hoping to getting together sometime. So we said our good byes and headed into town. We arrived at the club about 8.30pm and found out they have been closed for about a year and it now is a strip club. Very disappointing, so we decided to go to CCK. It has been quite some time since we have been there because last time we went things did not go so well, but that's another story. So we arrived there had a drink and some more couples arrived a bit later, There was one couple there that night that we noticed she was quite drunk and went up to most of the couples and asked them to dance with her, but no one was keen. So I decided to go up and dance with her ,we had lots of fun, me and her kissed and touched each other Master was watching us and started to get very hard. She then grabbed my hand and wanted us to play together so we went up the stairs where the beds were and started playing with each other, her partner got into me and Master got into her, Master was licking her pussy and fingered her I was watching him, He was really enjoying himself which made me very horny and happy. But he had no sex with her instead Master and I had awesome sex. I want Master to be satisfied in every way possible, hope it will happen with the right woman. We have a few that are keen to play with us. So we cant wait!! But we had a sexy and exciting night never the less.
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First time for holding the camera
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Posted:Jul 10, 2016 6:24 pm
Last Updated:Jul 17, 2016 9:06 pm
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Master and I had an awesome weekend to be honest. We were meant to meet a couple that night, but they were a no show which Master and I were not too happy about. We had already had a few drinks in us, so Master decided to take his frustrations out on me instead. So he got me to suck his dick till he was nice and hard, and then decided to push me so I fell to the ground, I had fishnet stockings on and he ripped them off me and fucked me on the floor nice and hard.
Then he got me up and pushed me on to the couch and opened my cunt really wide and started to lick me out while I was playing with my clit, was so enjoyable. Master of course wanted it all to be videoed, so while he was playing and licking me out I was holding the video camera, and yesterday we played it all back to see if we had some good pictures and a good video to post on line, and I really surprised myself I did a great job and Master was very happy as well. It was a great success. So keep a look out for this great video and please comment on it as well. Have fun and be horny all of you.
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Having sex with period
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Posted:Jul 7, 2016 4:25 pm
Last Updated:Jul 10, 2016 8:53 pm
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Hi there everyone, As long as I can think In my past relationships I never really liked sex when I had my period. But I must say since meeting Master he has changed my mind about all this. I get quite heavy periods since having my so I have been in a lot of discomfort when having them, then Master said how about I give it a good stir around, so I said ok I will try it and see how I feel afterwards. Well the results were so great I had a lot less pain and afterwards less blood as well, I was so surprised of how great I was feeling after sex. We just put a towel down on the bed and Master just deals with me how he pleases and he eases my period pains at the same time. Its wonderful how I feel about my period and having sex, again Master has shown me something new to enjoy and I can relax. He is such a good Master to me and has only my best interest at heart, of how to pleasure me in every way possible. So ladies out there if you find it horrible to have sex while you have a period, think again it has so many benefits. So just give it a try you will be surprised of how enjoyable it can be! Have fun.
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My newest News
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Posted:Jul 4, 2016 8:09 pm
Last Updated:Jul 26, 2016 3:47 pm
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Hi there everyone, its been a while since I have written a blog, just never seem to find the time.
My Master and I went into town this weekend to find some new labia piercings. As I have had these plain ones in there since last year September. We thought its about time to have a change and then take photos of them. But it has been a bit disappointing as we have not been able to get any yet. We did come across a couple of tattoo places that sell good body jewellery, but the lady was busy at the time, and then we got a bit fed up wandering around. So if anyone has any brilliant places where we could get some lovely jewellery please feel free and let us know. We have had a look on line and not been that successful though.
So our other big news is that as I have piercings below and Master loves adorning me with bling bling, we have now booked an appointment to have my nipples pierced at the end of July. So off we are going to Thames going to the same place where I had my labia piercings done. Really looking forward to it, I love to please Master and I know he will love them too. He wants to get me some nice jewellery for them. I know they will look great.
My life is so awesome I have grown even more now, and Master is always pushing the bounderies futher and futher for me. I am so comfortable and am happy to be his lovely Bitch!
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Master had his wicked way!
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Posted:Apr 3, 2016 8:22 pm
Last Updated:Jul 26, 2016 3:48 pm
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Last week Friday Master had been in a very wicked mind set since we have had a few interactive shows with other guys and couples. I never thought this kind of show would be sought after, but there are so many devious and dirty people out there who want to explore their wild and kinky side. Master and I have had a lot of fun and there is definitely more to come for sure.
As I was saying Master was feeling very horny and wicked, so when he got home he wanted to unleash all his passion on me so he decided to tie me up on the bed, handcuffs on my wrists and feet and tied the rope real tight so I could not move. He then touch me all over kissed me, pulled and sucked my nipples, and licked and pocked my pussy till it was all wet by then he was so hard, he decided to untie me and take me doggy style hard and fast. It felt so awesome to have his big hard cock inside my dripping wet pussy. Master came big time inside me, I felt every shot. He was very satisfied. After that I sucked him clean every last drop of cum, and we enjoyed our evening with drinks and relaxing in each others arms.
What a great night it was! I am so happy to be his bitch.
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Well overdue to post!
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Posted:Mar 13, 2016 6:53 pm
Last Updated:Jul 26, 2016 3:48 pm
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Hi there everyone its the bitch here. Master is quite upset with me that I have not posted anything on HotMatch.com, so here I am, so of course I was punished for it. Master tied me up on the bed, with my hand bound and then my ankles, I felt very trapped and at his mercy, he then blind folded me and went away for a brief moment. I then heard him come back and put a cold piece of ice on my nipple then went over to the other one down my tummy and into my pussy, it sent shivers down my whole body. Then he took another piece of ice and pushed it up my wet pussy, it felt very intense, then he took the whip to me and started whipping my pussy and the inside of my thighs, and then my tummy and last but not least my tits. He took great enjoyment with them. My senses were very heightened, it felt so erotic and sensual at the same time. Then he decided to have me, Master got all hard and enjoyed every minute of it until he came in me, it was a great explosion. Then I told Master I had to piss so he told me to piss there and then, so I did it felt amazing we got it all on video which was great. Just another one to add to our collection when we get our web site up and running. Even though this was my punishment I really enjoyed it, it has me grow even more and I am so happy about that! To be completely owned by Master.
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The bitches destressing thoughts
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Posted:Jan 25, 2016 12:46 pm
Last Updated:Jul 26, 2016 7:00 pm
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Well its a new year 2016, so much has happened last year. Some bad but lots of goodI have grown a lot in this last year but not as much as I would like to. There is still a lot of work to be done. Life has been up and down for me, but through it all I am so much stronger for it. Now I just have to get over my insecurities and not think so little of myself. Master and I had another disagreement last week, which is not good of meeting another woman who we have been talking to for a while. I again let my insecurities take over and a fight broke out. So then he told me I might not be the perfect woman for him and that really freaked me out, I don't know what to think. I am very heart broken and very distressed, I am just a crumbling mess. Life sucks. Master and I are not speaking, I feel things are at an end for us.I really thought I was growing as a bitch, loving my lifestyle I really love my collar all I want is to be me, cant even do that. I am at a real loss, I love him so much it hurts but I feel he does not care how I feel. I feel so useless right now.
A few days later when we sorted things, Master demanded I read my journal to him but I really did not want to, but I did, he disciplined me by putting my collar on real tight so I could hardly breath. Master told me that he had failed me, he should have just told me to shut up and that we are going to meet this woman no arguments. Master was so horny he is on top of the world again, and he tells me its because of me, and just to have faith in him. All is good again. Thank goodness for that!
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Very interesting Cam session last Friday
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Posted:Dec 17, 2015 12:43 pm
Last Updated:Jan 5, 2016 8:29 pm
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Well here I am again filling you all in of what we have been up to. Last Friday night we had a very special guest with us to join us on cam, I was his birthday present as we had promised him a special time for the occasion. He was very impressed of how I dressed up for him, in a black wet look mini dress green fishnet stockings, long black lacy gloves, black high heels, and green ribbons on my wrists and a ribbon around my neck. He totally loved it and could not take his eyes off me. Master and I all went to the office to start our cam session. At first there were not a lot of people watching, but after a few minutes the numbers started creeping up. I played with both their dicks, Master played and sucked my nipples, as my special friend got very hard he started penetrating me I was really enjoying it but for some reason he went a bit soft and was not able to come knowing he was on cam in front of thousands of people. So Master and I finished off the cam session with Master pissing all over me and me drinking it, it was an awesome feeling so warm and erotic. Maybe next time when we have a guy caming with he wont loose his nerve because of the audience we have. Hoping next time will go smoothly. So you guys out there if anyone is game to go on cam with us just send us a message and we will let you know. We love entertaining people its what we live for.
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Lets talk about Submission
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Posted:Dec 7, 2015 1:31 pm
Last Updated:Jan 22, 2016 1:16 pm
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I have found submission can be a easy or hard thing. I myself have found it quite easy to submit. I have been married and the vows I took that day were, " I will love honour and obey till death do us part", in these modern days not many people have that in their vows any more, which in my opinion is quite sad men and women want to be equal to each other and it is a constant battle who should submit. With my relationship after a few years things went pear shaped, he was very aggressive but I was still happy to submit anyway, but things did not end well for us. But the good thing is I had four lovely out of it which counts for something. Submission can be a strength but also a weakness, depending on who you are with. It also is a wonderful gift to have. Now that I have found the right man/Master, I find submission to be very easy. I love to please Master in every way possible and it brings me a lot of joy to see him happy and fulfilled. One just has to fully surrender in body, mind, and soul if that's truly what you want. That's the way to get the most out of true submission. Anyone who truly submits holds the key to power. Its simple, Just give it a Try! You might surprise yourself.
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Thoughts/Feelings on Sub/Dom Relationns
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Posted:Nov 25, 2015 12:37 pm
Last Updated:Jul 26, 2016 7:01 pm
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I will give you a few thoughts and experiences I have had with my Master. One good quote is "Sex without pain is like food without taste" Understand there are many varying degrees of pain taking desired kinks to experience. Each submissive has their own pain threshold. For some it is administered as a punishment and yet for others it may in fact be a reward. When Master gives a twist of my nipples or a firm slap on my ass with his hand or the leather whip, it will send me over the edge into a state of euphoria, or a sharp sudden sting and giving way to heightened arousal. As I know for many submissive they cum for a good sound spanking and love it. How gentle his touch is when you know how rough he can be. One really has to keep an open mind and fully enjoy exploring their own sexuality to its fullest. Being a submissive is a choice one makes, and it is the best choice I ever made in my life. You have to fully surrender to it in body mind and soul that way you hold the power.
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