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Posted:Jan 6, 2011 10:38 am
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ok this seems to be a popular thing to be doin so i'm gonna make this post completely private. y'all can post whatever you want and no-one else will see it. rants, raves or whatever, just pop it up and i may obliquely refer to it in my responses ^_^
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From the deepest abyss to the heavens...3 years (Warning: Super long)
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Posted:Sep 2, 2021 4:52 am
Last Updated:Sep 8, 2021 12:29 pm
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It began 3 years ago, altho at the time I didn't see it then....
3 years ago
I've found a regular job that I enjoy at a drive thru and I need a babysitter that won't cost me an arm and a leg. R and I have full custody of our , altho there is a condition that he cannot be alone with her because of his failing health. One of R's friends that I've known for a while tells me that his is looking for work and wouldn't mind watching our (hereafter known as booboo). She's a bit loud and brash, with a vocabulary to make a sailor blush, but when she meets booboo it's an instant connection. Her name is Tigerstripes (TS). Every day I come home from work, booboo excitedly babbles about the fun activites her and TS have done and I listen as R is on the couch, usually asleep. He barely goes anywhere unless he absolutely has, and he relies on an electric wheelchair because his legs have started to fail him on a daily basis. I did get my STNA license and used that knowledge to try to help R with his daily living, but the strain of raising a and taking care of him is starting to grow, and more days than not we have an argument. I spend most of my time on my computer, using discord and various online games to try and escape reality, even for a little while. I game until i can't hold my eyes open anymore, then drag myself to bed where I crash. I have several jobs during this time, trying to find somewhere i really enjoy working, and TS is there, every single time, willing to babysit. I pick up a random shift that wasn't planned? TS is on her way down, or she is cool with staying later. I eventually end up working at a drive-thru near my house and i really enjoy it. The home situation gets worse and worse until I'm not going to work because I enjoy it, but rather so i could get away. I start pushing myself to hard, straining my body until it starts to fall apart. Carpal Tunnel surgery, torn rotator cuff, lower back pain...but yet i kept pushing. Two months goes by, then my entire world was flipped on it's head and the worst year of my life begins.
May 2020 -July 2020
The pandemic has everyone in the worlld running scared. Masks, businesses closing down (thank godness selling beer and lottery is "essential" LMA , and panic has set in everwhere. R's condition has deteriorated to the point of no return. It wasn't uncommon to have a squad of 6 people coming into my house to help R get off the floor. The late night calls were the worse, cuz it almost guaranteed that the work i did to put booboo to sleep was gonna be undone. The paramedics would get R safely back either to the bed or to his wheelchair, where he would refuse to be transported and checked out. There were a few times where didn't have a choice, and i would be left to explain to booboo that daddy had to go to the hospital. Eventually his doctor stepped in, and around the beginning of July, R was ordered into an assisted living facility to complete rehab for his legs. There isn't any visitation, and if i have to bring R any of his things, then I have to leave them in the front office for a nurse to take back to him. We talk on the phone, he calls me almost every night, but the conversations are short and on more than one occassion i fell asleep talking to him. Near the middle of the month I'm informed that visitations are allowed, but only if booboo and I stand outside of his window and talk with phones. I don't see him very often due to the location of the facility and my work schedule....and then the day comes.....
July 20, 2020
I've just finished a busy closing shift. I'm chatting with my coworker and i give her a ride home before I head home myself. I'm exhausted, barely making it to the couch and flopping down. R calls...i answer but i'm snappy and my replies are short. I dont work the next day and all i want to do is sleep, so I tell R that i'm going to bed and hang up. I don't remember if i told him i loved him....
July 21, 2020
The ringing right next to my ear wakes me up, and looking at the clock I notice it's a bit after 10am. Booboo was awake next to me, watching vidoes on her own phone, and she looks at me "Mommy someone callling u." Grabbing the phone with a grumble and notice several missed calls and texts, including one from R's oldest friend. "Get a hold of me as soon as u can, something happened" I'm curious and slightly worried, so I called her. Then the sky fell in....
"Hey the nursing home said they were trying to get a hold of u, and when they couldn't reach u they called me." Apparently they had found her number in R's wallet. "They wouldn't tell me what was going on, but they asked me to have u call them as soon as possible" I'm still worried but confusion has given way to frustration and dread. "what the hell did he do now?" I'm grumbling to myself as i dial the number of the facility and go thru all the verificationand hoops to get to R's call nurse, who proceeds to drop the bomb on me...
"R is dead. When I was doing morning medicine rounds I found him. His ody has already been transported but we need you to come get his belongings"
My head is alreading shaking back and forth, trying to deny the words, but the rest of me is frozen. Somehow I managed to finish the conversation with the nurse, and started making the phone calls to family and attempt to make preparationg for R's body. I already knew that he wanted to be cremated...but i never knew it's was so damn expensive. I take one day off work, explaining the situation to my boss. I start a fundme to help with funeral costs and my boss allows me to have a tip jar during my shift to raise money. I look thru an online catalog that the funeral parlor directed me to, and choose his urn and a necklace. R's is with me during this time, but it's not comforting...it's disturbing. I only tolerate him a few weeks before i tell him he has to go. For the next year it is just me, booboo, and our dog.....
June 2021
My mental health has gone severly downhill. Old habits rise up from their graves to wreck havoc on me, while new habits slither their way into my life, promising relase but only delivering pain. TS is still babysitting for me, but now i only live to go to work and coming home fills me with dread. I try to maintain the image of a bright cheeful girl for the sake of the customers, but when I come home my temper is short. I barely talk to TS as I'm driving her back to her parents house, and my only goal is to get booboo asleep as fast as possible so i can be alone. Alone to stare blankly at whatever video i happen to find on the tv until I pass out on the recliner. I don't sleep in the bed anymore, i physically cant. Most nights i let booboo sleep in the bed just so she won't argue with me. I don't notice anything around me, the trash piling up, the dishes everywhere...nothing. Employees come and go from the drive thru, with only one staying until almost the very end. I'll call her mama here. She's a sweetie, and no matter if I'm working the kitchen or the drive thru proper, she always starts up a conversation with me, sometimes with gentle pushes to talk, sometimes with a funny story about one of her . I open up to her and we become close. I meet her husband (who wanted to know if i would have a 3some with them)and (adorable as hell but i would be bald with that many!) Then we get a new hire who starts to shatter the wall i had built around my heart....
His name is S and he's 6'3" of strength packed into a lean body that flowed like a dancer. I could feel his energy, filled with pain, but still so strong. In the first impulsive thing I had done in almost 9 months, i walked up to him and told him he looked like he needed a hug, then proceeded to give him one. It wasn't love that I fell in, but for a long time i tried to tell myself it was. I was so confused but so estatic when he agreed to have a relationship with me. He would come to my house and sometimes we would just sit next to each other, but most of the time we talked about what was happening. I'm so unsure about myself and when i start questioning everything.
"I don't understand what i'm feeling. I don't understand what we are. You fuck me like a pornstar at night, and we talk during the day but does that mean we're dating. Am i your girlfriend?" My voice is shaky as my head buzzes with doubt, questions eating at me as i try to put a name to whats happening.
"Why does it need a title? Right now we're just two people learning about each other and seeing what happens." His voice is deep, studded with gravel, and the sound sends shivers down my spine. "You need to stop tying to analyze everything and overthinking every situation. Sometimes the thing you're looking at is exactly what it is."
Our relationship blooms over the next several months. There were nights where TS agreed to stay home with boobooso that i could spend the night with S at his house. Just as i was starting to get comfortable with this new thing, it explodes in my face. I find out he has a fiancee...and i'm the last one to know. Her name is M, and she's even shorter than me, a pixie of a woman who, to me, just suddenly appeared in his life. She starts working at the drive thru as well, which starts causing strain between S and me. It all culminates on a Saturday night shift. I don't remember much, except everyone was angry, and I was attempting to run the kitchen by myself. My shift ends at 8, and i'm more than ready to go home. I had snapped at one of my co-workers over a misunderstanding (which i apologized for after i had cooled down a bit). S came into the kitchen and i told him I was leaving soon and that someone needed to come into the kitchen to take over. After he left M came thru to use the bathroom and we chatted briefly. I don't really remember the conversation well, but i do remember asking if she and another girl wanted to work the kitchen (M didn't have much experience in the kitchen). She does what she needs to and i don't notice her leave. A few moments later S barges into the kitch, rigid with anger.
*Backstory- S had told M a few weeks before that her had died. S says he told me about it, but at this time I don't remember him telling me. Future me remembers him asking me to be careful around her because of her dying. (Fun fact from future me. It was a lie. There wasn't anything wrong with her )
"Why the hell did you say that to M?" The sudden bark makes me jump and I look over to see him, rigid with anger.
"Say what? I told her that i was getting ready to leave soon and asked if she wanted to take over the kitchen. there's only this order left to make and i'll finish it before I go, but I can't stay late tonight"
"That's bullshit. M came out crying and told me that you said it wasn't your fault her baby had died! What the hell is wong with you??" He's yelling now, towering over me although he hadn't left the doorway.
"Whoa whoa whoa. I never said anything like to her. U know me S, I have a too so why the hell would I look at another mother, especially a grieving one, and tell her it wasn't my fault her baby had died?" I pause here, confusion apparent as my words come back to me. "Wait her baby died?? When???"
This apparently was the wrong response... "Don't try to play stupid with me. I told you about it when it happened. How fucking dare you act like you didn't know! I can't believe you, i'm fucking done"
S storms out of the kitchen before I can respond, and I'm left standing there in shock, trying to figure out what happened. the pizzas still need made so i'm trying to get them done, but i keep being interrupted. If it wasn't S it was M coming in for somthing. I try to talk to both of them, try to actually get to the bottom of the problem. I'm standing in front of the food counter, putting finishing touches on the last order, then head out to the main drive thru to try to find someone to take over. S and M are both gone, walking down the street together even tho they were supposed to close. I turn to the remaining co-worker who informs me that both S and M quit. She then told me that the boss wanted me to go home for the night and for her to close...by herself. I attempted to call the boss to volunteer to stay, but was met with anger even from him. Thouroughly confused and upset, I somehow make it home and pass out, knowing i had to be up early for my only morning shift of the week. Sunday morning light breaks in, and I look at the clock only to realize i had 10 minutes to be ready and at work. Hurridly i text my boss, explaining that I was gonna be late and apologizing. I heard the ding of a reply just as i was walking out the door and I looked down at my phone.
"Don't come in today. Effective immediately, you are no longer an employee of the drive thru"
That was it, the end of a job that I really enjoyed. I tried not to let it bother me and started the hunt again, this time finding employment as a pizza delivery driver. My life is about to flip upside down again but I don't know that yet...
Middle of June 2021
I fall in love with delivering and even the in house parts of the job are fun. I'm allowed to listen to music while I work, so I start bringing my headphones to work. TS starts reglarly ordering dinner from my work and booboo gets a kick every time i walk in the house with food. TS is over at my house more than she is her parents, and a storm starts brewing. I am hanging out with her and her husband when he makes a comment about me taking his wife. Something shifts inside of me and I look him dead in the eyes...
"If I wanted your wife I could have her, and there wouldn't be a damn thing you can do about it" My words shock me but he just laughs....none of know just how right i am....
End of June 2021
TS and her husband have been at my house for over a week straight. I'm noticing weird things. TS suddenly snapping at me or booboo, then crying the next minute as she apologizes. Her skin, normally so vibrant, looking dull. Bags under her eyes that she says are from nightmares. I confront her about it, and she tells me that her husband has been doing drugs in my house while I'm at work, and bullying TS into doing it as well. I immediately confront him, telling him that he was no longer welcome in my home and that I would be taking him back to Rush St in the morning. I can feel the beginnings of a panic attack so I go to my room, barely getting the door shut and on the bed before it hit me. My mind goes blank and i start rocking uncontrollably. I don't see her open the door and ask if I'm ok. I don't feel her as she sits down on the bed next to me. I don't hear her voice, tight with panic as she's asking me what's wrong....
A hesitant touch, her hand brushes my cheek and i feel fire shoot through me. My head pops up and our eyes meet. I'm looking into the ocean of her eyes and i can see the storm clouds rolling in. This time I hear her. "Hey what's wrong?? Talk to me please?" And I do. My words are rushed and babbling, I don't even think I made any sense half the time, bu I talk. Telling her about the panic attacks and the stress and how close I was to giving up. She doesn't say anything for the longest while and my head is down in shame. "Look at me please?" Her voice is softer than I've ever heard it be and i raise my eyes to hers again, helpless to do anything else as my body trembles and i start to hyperventillate. She's asking what she can do to help, i can barely hear her but i manage to choke out two words...."distract me" I can feel myself starting to pass out but i keep my eyes locked with hers, holding desperately as if her eyes were the only lifesaver in my ocean of pain and hurt. She smiles at me, turning to get more secure on the bed, but never breaking eye contact with me. "You can teach me to play chess. I've never played it before" My hands are shaking as i grab the chess set, but i manage to get it set up without drooping too many pieces. I explain all of the different pieces and how to move them, then we start the game. Having something to focus on helps draw the last of the panic away, and I start to have fun with her. I would set traps for her but at the last minute i would warn her before she actually walked into them. I beat her soundly the first game, but she insisted on a secon and a third game, each time improving slightly. We talked about everything that had been happening and then she looked at me, her eyes dead serious as she held my hand....
"I want you. I wish you would take me away from my husband like u said u could." Her words are soft, but by no means shy. She's still looking at me intently, and i feel like shes looking into my soul. I'm frozen by her gaze, watching the bright blue darken as the storm clouds moved in. She's still talking but I can't hear a word,feeling a raging storm of emotions engulfing my body, washing over me. My eyes shift, looking down at her mouth, fixated on the most perfect cupids bow i had ever seen. I watch as she slowly leans forward, her breath fanning across my cheek "It's ok babe, I'm right here...i'm right here" the last is a whisper in my ear and fire flashes thru my body, leaving me achy and and feeling so empty i want to cry. I don't remember much more of that night, brief snatches of conversations, timid hands exploring areas new to them. We fall asleep together, arms and legs twined. Nobody believed us at first, but it quickly came obvious to everyone...and that's when it began...
*Sidenote; i've know TS's dad for almost 10 years, and after R passed away,he attempted to come onto me. I politely shut him down, explaining that I have never had any sort of sexual interest in him.
Once it was known that TS and I were dating, her entire faily decided they had something to say. Her stepdad constantly made lewd jokes or told her that she was indiot. Her mom crying every time they talked on the phone, saying how it was so hard for her to accept the relationship we were forming and telling TS that she was making a mistake. They were constantly blowing up her phone. asking her to come over and help with something, or saying she needed to come get her things moved to my house. I take her, every time she asks. She goes into the house while booboo and I wait in the car. I turn my radio on, and listen to the playlist we created together, picking the songs to send a message, knowing they could hear every bit of it. She would come back down the driveway, seething with barely contained rage or trying desperately not to cry. We would go back home and finally, only when she was in my arms, would she break down, her body shaking as the storms in her heart burst. Finally one day I had enough. TS went out to the car to talk to her mom, and i could hear the conversation. "Why can't you understand TS? Its so hard for me to accept because I was raised Roman Catholic. I don't think you should be in a relationship with her and you need to come home" Her mom's voice sounded perfectly teary as she started crying, but I haif you want to still have a who wants to come around, then i suggestd heard that same type of crying for years, and I could tell it was fake. I walked over to TS and snatched the phone out of her hand.
"Look (TS's mom), i get that you're surprised that we're together, and I get that you don't approve but guess what? Neither of us need your approval to live our lives and she chose to be with me. Honestly I don't care if we never talk, but you are TS's family and I'll respect her wishes to come see you whenever she wants. What I won't tolerate is her being pushed around and emotionally manipulated to do what you want her to do. You're lucky, TS still wants to have a relationship with you, but if you keep this bullshit up then I'll stop bringing her over. Sure she acts tough when she's there with you guys, but when she comes back to me she's shaking from all the things she doesn't say to you. .I take her home and she breaks down, only feeling safe enuf to cry when she's in my room, far away from all of you. If you want to continue to have a that wants to come visit you, then I highly suggest you start treating her with more respect." Rage is flooding my body as i look up from the phone, seeing TS's tear soaked face staring at me nearly sends me to my knees but i put the phone back up to my ear, never breaking eye contact with TS...
"One more thing. TS is mine now and I take care of whats mine. If anyone wants to have an issue with that and feels froggy, then by all means jump. I won't throw the first punch, but you can bet your ass I will throw the last one"
I hang up and quickly sit next to TS in the car. I can see her eyes starting to lose focus as the seizure hits, and I hold her in my arms, my hand behind her head in an attempt to keep her from choking or hitting her head off the dash.
The next few weeks are a blur of going to work and taking TS to her parents house and dealing with the aftermath of those visits. It got so bad that she was having seizures and panic attacks almost daily while I was at work. Booboo was confused, not understanding what was wrong so I attempted to explain to her what was happening and told her if she ever saw TS shaking to call me from TS's phone. TS would always tell me to back to work after her seizures passed...and I would, but I let my managers know that my family comes first so if there was an emergency and TS or booboo called me, I would leave to check on her. I guess it happened to many times for management because about a week after the issues started I was informed that I had lost my job because I was leaving too much and was considered unreliable. It sucked but I wasn't too upset about it. I look back on that time no and realize that it was a blessing in disguise. I needed that time to readjust my life, and finally start to heal from the whole last year.
July 2021-Present day
Life is a whirlwind, yet TS is right there by my side. Her family has come around to me, altho my anxiety still gets bad from time to time. I think TS explained my anxiety to them so if she wants to visit but I stay in the car, one of them will usually peek out the door and wave to me. TS picked up some side work with her stepdad, helping him to mow and weedeat yards for their neighbors. He still doesn't really believe she has seizures (he's a dumbass) or that she's deadly allergic to bees (ive told him that if she wasn't then the doctor wouldn't prescripe epinephrin and he shut up) and he keeps trying to tell her how to do it, but my Tigerstripes is doing some growing of her own and now she just fires back and tells him to shut up when he starts pushing buttons. I make sure I'm there every day she has to work outside. I'll hang out with her mom for as long as I'm able, but i'm constantly checking on TS. When her stepdad comes in, then I go outside and watch her until she's safely back upstairs. He tried to make a comment about it one time "Why is she out there? She doesn't need to watch TS all the time" Her mom immediately jumped up and told him to shut his face. "My has seizures and she can get stung by a bee at any time, especially when shes out there sweating to death to help you. Someone should be out there to keep aneye on her and at least Alpha (me) cares enough to put TS's safety first"
Day by day TS, booboo and I are finding our own path to walk. We're finding our allies in unlikely places and learning what our new life as a family unit is going to be like. It's messy, it's a bit chaotic, but I wouldn't change it for anything. This unlikely love has been forged into an unbreakable bond. A bond of music, laughter, playdough, a wagging tail to greet us when we get back to sanctuary (our house), and the understanding of how we each see the world. A bond so strong that, even when words fail me, i know she understands what i'm trying to say when i look into her eyes. I thought I had found everything i could ever want...until yesterday....
September 2, 2021
It's a rainy bleh morning and I somehow manage to sleep thru not one, but 2 alarms. TS is on it though and leaves me sleep while she wakes booboo up to get ready for school. I finally wake up around 8:30 and my heart is warm as I see this gorgeous woman sitting on the bed next to me. She's already mostly dressed, wearing her favorite underarmor shirt and black jeans that cup her ass just right. Her hair is still fluffed up from sleeping and I grin as she heads into the bathroom, hairbrush in hand, ready to do battle with a head of curls that she says she hates, but i absolutely adore. Booboo is chattering away, and I try to pay attention, but i can hear the brush dragging thru TS's hair and it's a siren's call. I can't help myself. I'm staring like a lovesick fool at her and she notices, turning around to look at me, her bangs brushed into her face but refusing to be tamed. It's so damn sexy that it takes every ounce of willpower i have to not tear her clothes back off. I settle for stalking into the bathroom and grabbing her hips. I have to stand on my toes to kiss the back of her neck, but the small whimper she can't contain makes it worth it. She turns to me, eyes already heating up and reaches for me, but I'm slightly faster. My hands on her hips, i'm kissing her as if I'll die without her mouth on mine. The need in her voice when she whispers my name adds fuel to an already rampaging fire, and her hands are frantic on me as I walk her backwards. The wall is our support as our mouths crash together again and she can't help those small, breathy cries that she breathes into my mouth. Fortunately, or maybe unfortunately, we're brought back to reality by a very aggravated booboo who walked in on us without either of us being aware...
"Mooom, TS, you need to hurry up so u can take me to school" I can hear echoes of TS in our voice and the tone of absolute annoyance breaks us apart. We glance at each other, then look at booboo, standing in the doorway with her tiny hands on her hips as she stares at us. "Mommy....u need to hurry up. I have to pee and u need to take me to school so stop kissing TS" We can't help it, we both burst out laughing and TS scoops booboo up for a smashed face kiss, which sends booboo into a fit of giggles. We eventually get finished up and take booboo to school...then it got interesting....
TS's mom called and asked if I would give TS's cousin (MM, not by blood, that's important for later) a ride into the city to pick up the rest of his stuff from his ex wife's house. I didn't really want to because I was exhausted and was dreading meeting another member of her family. I did it anyway cuz the pay was good. It was an interesting adventure and so was the drive. We made a pit stop at a station so TS could get drinks for the road trip and her cousin starts talking to me and explains what happened with his ex girlfriend. and he asked i would text her and pretend to be his new girlfriend, which I did. His ex gf then got the idea that he had left her to have a 3some with us....an assumption that had all of us rolling on the floor laughing. Fast forward a few hours and MM and I were in the car when he looks at me
"You know I'm not just looking to get laid. I want to settle down and I was seriously wondering if there was a chance of being with both of u"
Stunned, i just gape at him, his words echoing in my head. I try to laugh it off but in the back of my mind the seed has been planted. to my surprise, the idea kind of turns me on, but I refuse to make a decision like that without talking to TS first, so i held my tongue until we had dropped him off. On the way home TS and I talked about MM's proposal and were both surprised at how much the idea intrigued us. We plan on talking to him later today, so we'll see what develops...
To Be Continued
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Well according to my blog....
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Posted:Apr 27, 2018 12:07 am
Last Updated:Apr 29, 2024 9:3 pm
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I haven't been here in 4 years?!?  Jeminitely o_o I doubt I'm gonna update on the WHOLE 4 years cuz I don't wanna give y'all brain melt so I'll hit the major points
Home
I've moved AGAIN but this house is soo much better than the last couple I've been living in. Suffice it to say it's been hella rough on me these last four years and I've not been living in A+ dwelling. Still married to R (over 10 years now jeez) and he...well he's still R, soo if you've read any previous blogs then you know what that means. I start STNA classes next month and hope to be employed by the end of June so fingers crossed there.
Furbabies
Sadly, I no longer have any of my furbabies and it has been super depressing on me. I know where one of them has been rehomed but as of right now I am unable to visit him (pit/wolf mix) because the last time I did, he spent 3 days trying to dig under the fence to find me again. I'm not allowed to have any furbabies where I currently live but maybe some time in the future I will be able to get another one...
Personal
I have lost a bunch of weight (215 lbs to about 193) and I have a new pic to show for it ^_^...when HotMatch.com decides to approve it. I'm going to try to be on a lot more from now on, although looking thru things....is anyone still active here? Also I noticed flashchat has been taken out of the chatrooms...what's up with that?? I will also be trying to post some HNW (if that's still a thing, if not I'll revive it lol) but no guarantees 
And that's it for the 4 years Cliffnotes version of an update (anyone remember Cliffnotes?...no?) Until the next post, goddess bless
Dani
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Well isn't that nice...
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Posted:Jul 30, 2014 12:14 pm
Last Updated:Jul 30, 2014 11:12 pm
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HotMatch.com is giving me 2 weeks of free gold membership because I'm such a popular member...but they STILL haven't approves my profile.... ugh
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48 freaking hours
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Posted:Jul 30, 2014 1:49 am
Last Updated:Nov 5, 2015 1:55 am
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and HotMatch.com hasn't approved my profile yet?  seriously all i did was change where i live -_- exactly how long does it take to approve that. HEY HotMatch.com I'D LIKE TO BE ABLE TO GET INTO THE CHAT ROOMS AGAIN SO GET OFF YOUR ASSES AND DO SOMETHING PLEASE AND THANK YOU!
thus concludes my rant ^_^
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HN....Saturday... :))
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Posted:Jul 26, 2014 6:31 pm
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2018 9:40 am
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OK so i know this is super late, but my HNW post is called Reflections. I was messing around with a photo editing program and came up with this, which I think came out pretty well. What do all of you think?
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The (very long) Update post ^_^
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Posted:Jul 26, 2014 2:58 am
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2018 9:41 am
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Oookay then, let's see i got what, a year or more to update on?Fasten your seatbelts y'all it might get a bit bumpy 
Home life
Not much to report here. I'm still with R (our 7th anniversary is on Aug 14) and while he has been behaving better, we still butt heads every once in a while. I'm now up to 7 furbabies. I now have 2 pit mixes, a hound mix, a full blooded wolf, and 3 chihuahua shitzu mixes. They're all huge babies, but R decided to feed them Mt Dew, so needless to say i've had a destroyed house and I can't open a can of any type of pop without having 7 pairs of eyes glued on me now... -sigh-
Work/school
I'm in school right now ^_^ I started on the first and it's been so awesome. It's completely online classes so I don't have to worry about travel or anything. My major is going to be Literary Science and Technology (goin the bookworm way, gonna be a librarian woot). My forst class is awesome and I'm doing a lot better than I thought I would (97.72% grade so far).
Huh...whataya know, I'm done already. Sorry guys but my life's kinda boring I thought I would have more to post, but I guess not. Keep an eye out for my HNW posts. i've got some really creative stuff planned (HNW is still going on...right?)
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before the update post
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Posted:Jul 24, 2014 3:17 am
Last Updated:Nov 5, 2015 1:57 am
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ok so i know i said i would do an update post today, but i log in and see this email and i gotta share it
wow you are very sexy ; )
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I've got a pretty sweet life right now doing the 9-5 and saving money no bills to worry about just need to add some sparkle.. I'm pretty laid back and can get aggressive when the time is right..
seriously the only words that pop into my mind are: what...the...hell. lets dissect this shall we?
wow you are very sexy
- ok standard opening line to most of my emails. just kinda makes me go...bleh
I've got a pretty sweet life right now doing the 9-5 and saving money
-good to know, but holds absolutely no interest whatsoever...bleh
no bills to worry about just need to add some sparkle...
-do you live in your mom's basement or something? 
i'm pretty laid back and can get aggressive when the time is right
-ehh what? ._.
ok y'all i promise, next post is gonna be a year and a half long update...promise 
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Hey I'm back ^_^
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Posted:Jul 23, 2014 3:01 am
Last Updated:Nov 5, 2015 1:58 am
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so how many of y'all even remember me huh? It's been hectic around here in the time i was gone, but i was finally able to get a computer again so i'll be on daily ^_^ especially since i see i have a gajillion posts to look thru ._. seriously people, i love to read but this is redonkulous. Love ya all and I'll post again soon...if i don't get brain melt from sorting thru y'alls posts
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sorry :(
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Posted:May 8, 2013 2:23 pm
Last Updated:Nov 5, 2015 1:58 am
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no HNW this week. i've caught some sort of bug (been in bed all day) and don't feel or look good enuf for a pic. been puking and got diarrhea i'll try to post a double next week
goddess bless
Dani
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WOOHOO I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Posted:May 3, 2013 5:18 am
Last Updated:May 9, 2013 3:06 pm
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I FINALY GOT A JOB. IT'S PART TIME AT KROGER AND I GO IN MONDAY AT 2 TO TALK TO THE LADY  I'M SO EXCITED!!!
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Tagline Tuesday
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Posted:Apr 30, 2013 4:41 am
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2018 9:42 am
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Here for you viewing pleasure: this week's weird, funny or just strange taglines.
Sexy Chocolate looking for Sexy Vanilla
ummm, now i'm craving ice cream 
Looking for random fun
sooo, if i say lets jump off a bridge... would you consider that random fun?
sex talk fun
not even sure what to say to this one
law of the boats
ummm, what??
i love sexy
ummm, sexy what? people, animals, buildings...?
just seeing who is out there
i believe there are PEOPLE out here..shocker i know
lion on the prowl looking for prey
ehh, i believe you are taking the phrase "eat me" a lil too seriously...
where are you??
at my computer?
breeder here
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disoriented
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Posted:Apr 27, 2013 7:17 am
Last Updated:Apr 29, 2024 9:3 pm
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it's weird but i'm sitting here and it's like my brain isn't connected to my body. it's a really freaky feeling and i hope it goes away soon
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To link to this blog (AlphaWinterWolf) use [blog AlphaWinterWolf] in your messages.
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