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Blogs > bioralpleasure > Musings of a Sexual Nature

June 2016, What a Ride  

bioralpleasure 67M
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7/1/2016 1:50 pm

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7/1/2016 2:40 pm
June 2016, What a Ride
What a month June was. I am not really venting, but have no one else to share this with. So dear HotMatch.com Blog readers, here is my saga of June 2016.

It actually started the last part of May when a woman not too far away, friended me out of the blue. THAT HAS NEVER HAPPENED in the 7+ years I have been on HotMatch.com. I decided to reach out and what a month its been. I had always used HotMatch.com to find NSA, anonymous hookups with men and couples. Only one time meetings and no relationship ensued. But I decided to explore the potential fuck buddy/FWB relationship with a woman. WOW! What a mine field that can be. FUN for sure, but what an emotional ride it can be.

I blogged about it earlier as Gone Girl. We have had a very intense but brief relationship which culiminated in an out of town trip. We had a blast and it was over in too short of time. I have never met such a hot, sexual, fun woman. We hit it off from the start and we still lust for each other.

I had a weekend free, very rare, so I had asked Gone Girl to spend it with me. I didn't get a commitment and made plans to meet another lady in the city I had planned to take Gone Girl. Well, long story short, Gone Girl decided at the last minute to accompany me. Now, what a fix. I had already made plans for dinner with a new lady, but Gone Girl was OK with me keeping my dinner date. So here I was having dinner with a really nice, attractive lady and Gone Girl was back at the hotel watching "Sex and The City" while I was out.

Gone Girl and I had a very hot, erotic evening enjoying each other when I returned. But next day we parted and we haven't seen each other since. I miss our connection and all the fun we had. It was so good, it kills me it had to end so quickly. We still stay in contact and try to keep it platonic, but the sexual tension simmers and trembles underneath.

I had a wonderful dinner that night and we had a great visit. But I was uncomfortable about the situation and dinner was longer than I had promised Gone Girl. My dinner companion was very perceptive and knew something was not adding up. Smart gal I later apologized and confessed the situation. She accepted my apology and I thought we were good.

I had hoped to get to know my dinner date and develop a friendship via email and see where it might go. But I wrote something a bit crude, and boom, and that was the end of that. I haven't dated anyone in 15 years or more. I had forgotten what a mine field it can be. I guess we weren't that compatible after all. Though we had a lot of common interests.

Then if that wasn't enough I decided I was tired of sneaking around my committed life partner. I finally got the gonads to ask for what I have been wanting for years, an open relationship. Open and honest communications, no deceit, dishonesty etc. If the previous situation wasn't already a emotional ride, this was Mr. Toads, wild ride for sure. I don't know if we can ever agree to an open relationship, but its brought up some stuff about our relationship that needed addressing. So its been a good thing. Note to readers contemplating asking for an open relationship, DON'T DO IT during a current affair. It multiplies the messiness by several factors.

So here its July 1 and I don't know where life is going. Life partner and I work on rebuilding our relationship, with openness a big question. Gone Girl and I stay in touch, but the possibility of resuming a sexual relationship is an "open" question. Dinner date doesn't want anything to do with me and unfriended me on HotMatch.com over an regretable phrase in an email exchange.

So here we are at the start of a new month. Hopefully it will be a bit calmer. But now that I have tasted it, I really want a FWB relationship with a nice, intelligent, sane woman my own age range I can see occasionally. Hopefully someone in an open relationship with her life partner. Probably too much to ask in this beautiful small town, redneck hell hole. Should I keep trying? Or is 59 too old?

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