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Let It Go....
Let It Go.... Not a footprint to be seen A kingdom of isolation, And it looks like I’m the Queen. I am a bitch. That's the reason I'm always alone. I have no time for weakness. For ignorance. For anything stopping me from reaching the goal. This makes me frozen. The Queen of Ice. My heart is gone. Couldn't keep it in; Heaven knows I've tried I am a liar. I hide from my true self and have become amazingly adept at being "Normal". I have never been normal. I am not a mother, I have never been a homemaker, I can't stand being a role-model, a neighbor, or even a teacher. I am a slave. don't let them see Be the good girl you always have to be Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know Well now they know I am owned. Once upon a time, in a far away land, I was bought. The price was my soul. My new owner was a master. Try as I might, my owner remains The Master. And every day I die a little more inside. No matter who I pretend to be, who I lie to be, He has the missing piece. And it scares the hell out of me. My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast I'm never going back, the past is in the past I cannot deny His return. It would cost me to do so, even if I could muster the courage. I am disappointed in myself and my feelings. I despise Him for making the "Normals" go away. For uncovering the hole He created, only to dig even deeper. To make it bleed, feel, crave. Why couldn't He let the dragon sleep? And I'll rise like the break of dawn Let it go, let it go That perfect girl is gone Here I stand In the light of day Let the storm rage on I have too many doubts. Doubts are never the friends of a slave. They are not tolerated, nor left unpunished. And punishment is one of my doubts. He is here. Stronger. Much stronger. He is darker. And I am not ready. To test the limits and break through No right, no wrong, no rules for me, I'm free! I am older. I am not the slave He had before. I have waited, and pondered and had remorse and lusted. And now I am torn. I am not there...where I was when He left. The pain hurts now and I can not let it stop me from the goal. Pleasing Him is the prize. The disgust in myself outweighs the disappointment I know will come from Him. And I'm not sure I can ever get to where He demands I be. I can not fail. I am one with the wind and sky Let it go, let it go You'll never see me cry Here I stand And here I'll stay Let the storm rage on Damn this confusion. It makes my head hurt. It makes my soul weep. And it makes the fire burn..... |
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A Dark tale of Passion you desire but can't seem to find or even worst, can't have.
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