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The Lives of some Others....
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The Lives of some Others.... I used to think that inspirations' all about sitting down there and waiting for something like a train to hit you. It's important to clear one's mind, make sure that you're not too pre-occupied with nasty thoughts which might be labouring you... Well.. It's true to an extent, except that somehow I'm beginning to believe that 'inspirations' is not about sitting down there doing nothing. But instead, it's about going out there and breathe that 'something'... Like a tea well brewed.... Like a wine for a deserving taste bud... Not too much perhaps? Just nice? I should think I have somehow 'wasted' alot of my life... Playing, enjoying my life, having fun... The many other parts of it being lazy.. Doing nothing... Yet there is also this weird part of me... My life.. Which largely consist of a person doing so much of 'soul-searching' that it's somehow amazing to myself...? How many others could never comprehense, I can totally understand why they're thinking that way.... Even at this point of my life, I'm still rather constantly 'searching' for that 'something'. 'Something' which I believe would truly makes my life picture complete and meaningful... Something which would make so many pieces of the things make sense.. Something which I can possess no doubt about... Something which would pierce through the many 'superficial' things in life? Something which would open up my path and 'eyes' almost like the greatest of a religion could... Yet it isn't. Nope, not a religion. It's something more of a practical and concrete ground for belief... Like a fluid which is going to fill up the rest of the gaps within my life... Pushing and forcing me to rise up to the top... Minus all the confusions and drowning below me... Yet now that I believe (I have once again) found that answer. It breaks out like an ironic joke of a sort. Something which might have spend more than half your life looking for... Could it really be not what you might really want...? Is there really a reason why it was never found any sooner....? Is it really meant to be found at all? Yet if I am to be handed over with the care of it in my fragile hands at this point of time... Would I be ready? Would I be astonished? Would I be overwhelmed by its power and commitment? It's not even like... A wife looking for a husband. A man looking for his job and career... A musician waiting to be inspired by his perfect scores. It's really nothing like these... It's really complex on one hand, yet so simple on the other.... Like a monk sincerely entering another world, deowning his very own existence from the 'existing' one... It's like a man deciding that he's ready to walk through the door of death anytime. Like 'life' has taken up a very different meaning. So different, that's why I have been feeling like I'm an alien in this strange land...? So many things about humans which I have not been able to comprehense, which I asked when I would be allowed to be...? But the answer's really that simple... It's not meant to be. You do not question the wind. It comes and goes in all directions and all strengths.. Asking such a naive question would only makes you a fool among the clowns... Patience. Observe. All lives end one day. It's not the end which you should fear, but the journey which you have so constantly walked on. Let it be what it should be. What you have always believed it to be. Do not question yourself. Do not question existence of any form. Do not be haste. Yet do not waste. Pour the amount you needed. Play the strings as your will. And soon you shall discover. A world of its own. |
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nice blog colours,..! i think you remind me of my old self when i was in primary/secondary school... so much soul searching. But now, i don't dare to do so much soul searching as i'll be afraid to be "all though, no action", but i think i was more true to my inner self a long time ago! ^_^ Dig me and comment on my blog to get noticed @ Honeydewy ! Mod of SR - THE ADULT Hang-Out =P , Phone Sex & what else? & Oldie Passionz =) Worldwide!.
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hmm..after reading all these...i feel like going to be a NUN.... i need to clear all that TOXICS lingering in my mind... The more i seek for enlightenment...the more I think I m wrong to be here.... OK...halt...no more confusing my little space...SPACE OUT TIME... 
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